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The feelings I experienced as a reader had been so potent and powerful I can only imagine what you as the writer must have felt like. MM has been such a rollercoaster. I was so immersed in it that it’s still taking me some effort to yank myself out of my daydreams. I’m constantly turning over scenes, dialogue and patterns in my head. What could have been, what DID happen. How birdy went through those achingly slow yet quick seven years of Hogwarts. (I want to add here how weird I think making 17 as the age of consent is instead of 18. What was the neeeeedddd JKR!!!!! We could have gotten one more year of Birdy!!)

I think about Birdy being an unreliable narrator a lot and the way it affects me as a reader. Her tunnel vision and disregard of herself or the possibility of being wanted by anyone (platonically or otherwise) had rubbed off on me so much to the extent that I actually found it quite surprising when Lily is warm to her, when Irina gets angry on her behalf, when James is trusting, and when Sirius thinks about her as intensely as he does in his two POVs. I have to make myself sit back and think wait, they are probably just normal 😭 Birdy is the one wary of everyone LMAOO

Out of all relationships Regulus had been the most special to me. I mean, he transcends Irina which is saying a LOT. I’ve tried to rewrite this but I can’t say how much it means to meeee. Their time together had been precious. Precious and special and exactly what they needed. They needed to be away from everything!!!!! Your MIND!!!!

The ending had been deeply depressing to me LMFAO my chest ached and ached and ached and I was in near tears. From an objective standpoint, birdy’s tragedy an incredible story. And as you’ve mentioned you formulated her around being a war vet // // Sirius’ death being momental in her life etc etc. As a story it is so interesting and delicious to read but my heart cannot take that much hurt rip im not built for this. Post jily death is going to have me in tearsss!!!

MM has been such a ride. I’m so grateful I got to be a part of it. I hope you know just how many people you’ve touched with your writing. You’re phenomenal. Thank you so so much for your efforts.

Birdy and Sirius post Hogwarts....

And on that note thoughts on the Knights of Walpurgis! If you don’t know much there are some tiktoks…

I was also thinking of The Moment when sirius and birdy meet when he and James get assigned to find her and reg ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

As in, he’s dead focused on chasing after her with a singular selfish motive that the government most definitely does not have in mind. him and james get stuck in dead ends after dead ends and they fall deeper and deeper into death eater lore and shit etc etc , and along the way they somehow find out ab the existence of the horcruxes and they somehow also vaguely understand that birdy and reg are running away from death eaters.

It’s been a bad day for them both, but they get somewhat closer to a clue they’ve been scouring for and they’re entangled in some riddle and for the first and only time Sirius’ mind thinks of something other than finding birdy because it’s been such a shit day and the sewer they’re in smells worser than ever due to the humid weather and in that same moment while all these thoughts are running through him a voice comes out of nowhere and he whips his head around high on alert and watched the shadow on the wall become a figure only to disappear into a corner and come out again and —

Its birdy

Like. It’s been on my mind as you can tell… 🥲

I've been getting alot of tweets of Louis/Millie because of Enola Holmes and girl...

Birdy is braver than me to still leave him I had no idea that was this ripped??!!!