Haven’t really logged in on here in forever, guess I’ll post to show I’ve been here. I feel like I’ve lost myself, but that is just the sad girl inside of me that can’t help but feel like I haven’t really progressed. I miss a lot of my close friendships, mainly the ones that have faded away because we’ve all changed. Just miss my best friend, really. But that’s how things played out and some days it feels like its still a huge weight on my chest - the pain of not having those moments to share with her anymore because we’re not quite each other’s person.
And, just in denial about myself. Just in denial of what is happening inside of me and how I don’t feel in control of myself at all. How I just keep quiet about it and play it off as nothing at all.
Well, truthfully I don’t feel like typing anymore, it’s too exhausting.
