watching "i saw the tv glow" for the first time tonight :} admittedly a little nervous BUT otherwise very very excited
hopefully i won't cry but i probably will given what it's about
wish me luck lol
We r watching at the same time. Wish US luck lol...
as a non trans individual, I probably will understand literally 0% of this gorgeous film.
LOVING the cinematography. Its stunning.
it's ok bestie i'll explain anything you need me to lol (probably not gonna fully get all of it myself but HEY I'm gonna TRY and that's all that matters)
....holy shit
As an enby/girl who's always been very androgynous (both in appearance and in style),
and struggled with and considered the possibility of being trans,
I Saw the TV Glow is a jaw DROPPING representation of gender invisibility.
Feeling like you aren't really right all the time, and nobody sees you for it.
Yet, also having those perfect moments where you look at yourself in makeup or in a baggy t-shirt and jeans, and you just feel the pendulum inside you swinging.
Feeling that pride to be different.
And then feeling the shame.
This quote really registered with me, and I felt like it embodied a lot of... well, everything:
"It feels like someone... took a shovel and dug out all my insides. And I know there's nothing in there, but I'm still too nervous to open myself up and check."
Whether its looking back and acknowledging past traumas, or looking forward and accepting present ones,
Or realizing that pulling or pushing yourself into different norms, and failing to open the door into 'normality' every time, is because it was open the whole time - and all you had to do was walk through it.
I saw the TV Glow was genuine cinema.
Don't think I'll ever see anything like it again.
Don't think I ever want to.
