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[ encourage ] sender supports receiver with pats on their shoulders and a big, encouraging smile

[ silence ] sender lays a finger over their lips, telling receiver to stay quiet

[ stop ] sender holds their palm out facing receiver, stopping them in their tracks

[ affectionate ] sender plays with receiver's hair

[ braid ] sender begins to braid receiver's hair

[ i love you ] sender signs I LOVE YOU to receiver

[ go away ] sender gives receiver's shoulder a shove, trying to make them walk away or go into another room

[ slam ] pent up with frustration, sender leaves receiver and slams the door behind them as they exit

[ knock ] sender is here to see receiver and knocks playfully on their door to indicate they've arrived

[ wipe ] seeing receiver cry, sender reaches out and wipes their tears away (with their fingers or with a tissue)

[ secret ] making sure no one sees, sender secretly takes receiver's hand under a table and laces their fingers

[ squeeze ] sender reassures receiver in a dangerous situation by squeezing their hand

[ sleepy kiss ] while receiver is sleeping (or pretending to be asleep), sender approaches them and places a soft kiss on their forehead

[ hospital ] receiver is in the hospital, and sender sits in a chair by their bedside all through the night and holds their hand

[ celebrate ] receiver accomplishes something amazing, so sender rushes into receiver's arms and jumps up and down, eager to celebrate their victory

[ food ] sender brings receiver their favorite dish to cheer them up

[ glass ] sender and receiver are separated by glass. sender draws a heart on the glass with their finger for receiver to see

[ rest ] sender lays their head on receiver's shoulder and falls asleep there

[ expect ] sender sticks out a hand, palm up, waiting for receiver to give them the item they want

[ pillow ] sender playfully tosses a pillow at receiver, starting a pillowfight

[ sob ] sender rushes into receiver's arms and breaks down in their embrace, hiding their tears in receiver's chest

[ offer ] sender is cooking for receiver and offers out a spoon for receiver to sample a taste

[ love note ] sender passes receiver a romantic note in secret

[ close the distance ] sender and receiver are seated together, and sender moves closer to snuggle with them

[ montage ] receiver tries on clothes, and sender either approves or disapproves of each outfit with a nod or a shake of their head

[ stare ] while receiver gazes out a window, sender comes up from behind and embraces them

[ dance ] sender approaches receiver and starts dancing with them, positioning their hands for them

[ paint ] while sender and receiver paint together, sender smears a little paint on receiver's face to make them laugh

[ funny ] sender makes an assortment of funny faces to try and make receiver laugh

[ flowers ] sender leaves a bouquet of flowers for receiver to find

[ catch ] sender catches receiver's eye across a room and winks at them

[ refuse ] sender is upset with receiver and pushes away from their hug

[ get out ] sender points at the door, demanding receiver leave

[ snuggle ] sender lays down beside receiver and curls up against their body, quickly falling asleep

[ smooch ] sender takes receiver's face in their hands and guides them in for a romantic kiss

[ fix ] sender approaches receiver and fixes a piece of clothing or jewelry on their person

enjoy!  these have no theme, just a bunch of random but fun questions.

what time do they usually go to bed and wake up?

what products are in their shower/tub?  what are the scents?

do they use candles?  favorite scent?

if they could meet/talk to one person, dead or alive, who would it be?  what would they say to them?

do they own any sentimental objects?  why are they sentimental?

favorite family member?  why?

do they dance?  what type of music gets them moving?

has there ever been a time where they feared for their life?  why?

what was their favorite childhood activity?

when they look into a mirror, are they happy with what they see?  why or why not?

do they still have childhood friends?

what do their holidays look like?  family/friends/etc.

do they celebrate their birthday?  why or why not?

what do they have as their phone background?

what’s their handwriting like?  neat and precise/sloppy/cursive/etc.

have they ever been to an amusement park?  

have they ever used a dating app?  how did it go?

what do they sleep in?  what side of the bed do they sleep on?

favorite place they’ve ever been?  what made it their favorite?

do they prefer to watch a movie at home or in the theater?

have they ever run away from home?

what’s their nightly/morning routine like?

if they have pets, what’s their dumb nicknames for them?

favorite deodorant?  toothpaste?  lotion?

do they sing in the shower?  what’s their go-to song if so?

describe their living situation.  what does their living room/bedroom/kitchen/etc look like?

what’s one thing they’ve done that they’re the most proud of?

would they ever go to a haunted house?

how many languages do they speak?  would they like to learn more?

why types of books do they read?  do they have a favorite?

if given the opportunity, would they go to space?  why or why not?

if the world didn’t rely on money, what would their dream occupation be?

do they play any instruments?  if not, would they like to learn one?

what would they do if they won the lottery?

what’s their favorite method of self-care?

would they ever go camping off grid?

if money wasn’t an issue, where is their dream home?

how often do they cook at home versus getting takeout, etc?

do they have anyone in their past they would like closure from?  who and why?

#𝙲𝙾𝙽𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙳𝙴𝙳  the good thing about having a family that doesn't love you , is you learn to live without it. you're all chasing after dad "oh, love me ! please. love me. i need love ! i need attention ! "  you are needy love sponges. i’m a plant that grows on rocks and lives off insects that die inside me.

his eyes fill with unshed tears at the calm and collected demeanor of the eldest sibling . he's not laughing or mocking and even offers to help , and it's too easy . roman feels like he's walking into a trap , except this is connor he's talking to and of all the family members , connor's the only one who gives him the feeling he won't be stabbed in the back the moment he turns around . he trusts him , but he still feels slightly frozen in place , like his mind doesn't know what to feel and is trying to decide what to do . he wants to cry and throw up and scream and set himself on fire . in the end , he rolls up the magazine and gives it up to his brother , without looking at him .

once it's out of his hands , he curls up with his back against the bed , face hidden behind his arms and knees , trying to make himself smaller , as tears start to flow freely , body shivering with silent sobs .

“ hey, no. c'mon.” eldest brother protests, kneels beside roman. he wants to say : if there's something wrong with you, there's something really wrong with me. because sometimes it's easier to defend others than it is yourself, but then . . . logan's been drilling it into their heads that into their heads, hasn't he ? something is wrong with connor. too soft. too much like his mom. while roman believes connor won't talk, con can't say it works the other way around. because if push comes to shove, con's a perfect scapegoat. and he's putting his head on the chopping block isn't he ?

“ there's nothing wrong with you, rome.” he sits then, leans his back against the bed to mimic baby brother, feels the scrunch of paper against his arm. “ it wasn't yours, and everyone gets curious.” he scratches the back of his neck. admittance ? hey, i've fucked guys. doesn't seem like helpful talk, no matter who it is connor has fallen for it's always been about money, and once they've had their fill, poof : gone.

“ it doesn't matter, rome. who you're interested in. not saying you're interested, but . . . y'know. ” if you are. “ people change, and grow and interests change, and even if they don't, it's not anyone's business but yours.” it isn't a closet, it's a house, and it's up to them who they let inside, who gets to know. but he's got the feeling roman isn't ready for that conversation, that there isn't a lot he can do to make him ready. he's got to find his way there on his own.