Confusedride

We often think we have grown up enough, that we are not childish anymore, that losing innocence is a sign of maturity. We tend to confuse between letting the passing days and fleeting time take control over us and actually growing up into an adult. The actual point behind growing up seems to be lost in the lives of many of us since we forget that growing up is about becoming someone who walks and climbs while still holding their childhood self inside their heart.

And that’s why, when one lets go off the hands of their childhood self is when one seems to feel lost.

I think i let go of her without even bidding a proper farewell, and it made me question myself this- what will i do now if i meet her again?

Lots of things came to my mind, maybe l will tell her that i miss her, so damn much. Or maybe I’ll tell her that she’s cooler than i am so she need not shrink herself at all. I’ll hug her tight, and for how well i know her she’ll for sure push me away and make faces at me lol. She will be curious to ask me how am i doing for which I’ll have to sit her down. She was happy cause she knew less but better back then so maybe she’ll not understand a word that i say but I’ll tell her that I’m sorry. I’ll tell her how i gave in every time she would never have, which is why i lost her. I’ll tell her how i started to become aware and stopped being happy. And, unfortunately, she’ll blame herself, even though she’s so much better than me.

But, if i cry and tell her everything that’s gone downhill, wouldn’t she lose herself, just like how i lost her? And isn’t that unfair?

No, that’s not fair. She is too good to lose herself. So, I’ll just-

“Love is being loved at your worst,

And,

Nobody can ever justify how wanting to actually feel connected and being seen is something funny.

No one is perfect and that’s why relationships are not about perfection but simply about people who try to be perfect for each other or at least try to meet each other half way.

When people fail to walk even a mile for each other, it’s not just that they don’t love that person but also that they have no sort of respect for the person’s heart, mind, hardships, success, failures, feelings and thoughts. And in response when the person on the other side questions the disrespect, they are ironically called out for not respecting or being considerate enough of them.

The absolute worst nightmare nobody has until they are living it is being a part of a family full of people like that. It messes you up, makes everyday feel like a chore and running towards the only thing you’re trying to escape from becomes your last resort.

Cause i don’t know if i can use the word “again” here but… Im watching The Big Bang Theory for the THIRD time, AGAIN !

And before you come at me for how “the shows is not even that great”, “the show isn’t even humorous” and “Sheldon is just annoying”, let me clear out on why this show is absolutely amazing and worth watching once, twice and thrice! (Maybe even a fourth time) ;)

The brilliance of the show lies in how they’ve built each and every character and have reconstructed them and improved them with time. And the character development isn’t even dramatic or just too miraculous to be relatable but it’s in fact done in the most realistic manner, just like how we people in real world change. Each character was on its own end of the extreme but a gradual walk through the spectrum was clearly shown, rather than just hurrying to the other extreme.

The show is absolutely wholesome and warm, with i believe no annoying loose ends, though yes, i agree, they could’ve added a few more lines in the plot of the show for Raj’s character.

My most favourite part of this show is how each and every character is shown to have a resilience towards working on relationships with each other. There are episodes where uncomfortable conversations happen, confrontations happen with clear communication ending with respectful apologies and a given chance being addressed with efforts.

This show makes you realise that effort is not a Herculean task but just a simple gesture to show how much you respect someone.

Confidence is the line you draw between humility and arrogance

SPOILER AHEAD

A book written by an actual physician dealing with brains, with a theme focused on fighting against DV and power of womanhood BEYOND THE LOOKS, minimal smut involvement showing how the book is not here to cater to your fantasies or your desires but a simple thriller with a subtle message is being adapted into a movie with two of the three main leads being portrayed by two of the most sexualised actors.

“Sarva-dharmān parityajya mām ekaṁ śharaṇaṁ vraja

Ahaṁ tvāṁ sarva-pāpebhyo mokṣhayiṣhyāmi mā śhuchaḥ”

Which translates to

“Abandon all varieties of dharmas (duties/religions) and simply surrender unto Me alone. I shall liberate you from all sinful reactions; do not fear (or grieve)."

This verse, being so widely known and circulated has taken up different meanings and forms. Yes, no “one” meaning is right or wrong and yes understanding is relative or even subjective, but one meaning that people have acquired about this verse has somewhat created a tension between the believers of different schools of beliefs.

Here, when Shri Krishna talks about letting go of control and surrendering to “him”, the words “dharma” and “aham” are used, which has made many people to think that lord Shri Krishna is urging us humans to give up every “religion” and to surrender to and only follow “him”. This belief has lead people to look at the words “dharma” and “religion” in a different way instead of the actual meaning that the Lord must’ve most probably implied. Majority of the followers tend to believe that here the words have a quite literal meaning- spiritual practices and choice of faith, and thereby followers tend to feel that they are superior for already being worshippers of The Lord and tend to impose their beliefs and superiority over the “inferiors”, that is, people with a different choice of faith.

People belonging to this school of thought also sometimes tend to think that the only superior power to exist is Lord Shri Krishna only, which can become an insensitive and inconsiderate opinion.

But perhaps, here, The lord is simply a superior power which has personified itself into the form of a human, thereby, using the word “aham” meaning “I” to metaphorically describe itself and help human forms feel closer to it. And this same “aham” here is asking you to surrender to “him” by giving up all “dharma”, meaning to give up all duties and practices and believes that bind you to the world and not choice of faith or who you bow to directly.

Lord Shri Krishna, i believe, in no way tried to persuade us humans into giving up our faith or the way we feel closer to supreme power above us, neither did “he” try to impose “his” superiority over us.

I’ve been trying to explore my hobbies a lot more now so thought of something that would make me stay more committed and consistent with them-

I’m going to be talking about my perspective and my takes on some of the most widely accepted philosophies and theories in a series of posts which I’ll be uploading everyday for at least three days here!

So here is what I’m planning to upload in series- Thefinaltake!

Other times you see a movie and feel “oh god, not now please…”

But then there are movies which you see only to realize why you are watching it at that very exact moment, not sooner, not later but exactly now for a reason, some reason.

One such movies for me is the Good Will Hunting.

The movie walkes us through different versions of humans, how different our priorities can be and how different situations can shape them and us, all very different yet with the same beauty in them.