confessions by and for roleplayers

I think some people would benefit from writing fanfiction for their muse/ship of choice rather than waiting around forever for the ‘right’ partner to find them. This is especially the case if they have such a strong vision that it’s difficult for another person to fit exactly what they have in mind.

‘I don’t know what I’m doing wrong and I prefer to communicate so I’m gonna take a break so and so’ Well bro, you broke mutuals with me first, and I don’t know what I did wrong, either. The fact that we have regular threads confuses me too. Maybe because your muse is a white canon male who likes to fuck everyone while I write an aro ace female of color muse and I prefer platonic friendships. It all makes sense to me now.

'I am taking a break from this blog, I am now on my other blog in that other fandom' -> is not mentioning the blog name or url. So what, do you want us to grovel at your feet to give us your 'new shiny'? Tired of this behavior. I don't mind people moving blogs a lot as long as they communicate and follow me on their own without making me chase after them all the time. But teasing to be active on a new blog but not even posting said blog? And I know they have no drama to their name.

Sometimes I really hate keeping quiet about what happened back then between me and that one particular person. I don't make a habit of vaguing on my blog. I keep any conflicts with me and someone else relatively private and only tell a select few in DMs if it comes up. Yet that person made most everything public and their vendetta against me was made known to many. To this day I think people still believe them. Granted, many people actually ASKED about my side of things after hearing theirs, and immediately changed their opinion. They realized this person had the gift of gab and was being untruthful. Untruthful enough to the point they started to write/roleplay with me, despite it making the other person mad. So… why am I still bothered? Trauma probably? Idk. I just want to roleplay with people again without fear that certain people still believe some false accusations made about me years ago. Without fear of being hatefollowed. Why is that so hard? I would love to reach out to more folks but… ugh.

My confession? I know it probably won't be taken well by some, but this blog is designed for this right? If you have in your rules that I HAVE to write with your female muses in order to write with your male muses, then I'm out. Even if I came to your blog because your female muses interested me, the second I see that kind of rule, I'm exiting your blog. I'm not going to be forced to interact with muses who may not be to my taste in order to earn the chance to write with the ones who are. And before anyone says anything, yes I would say the same if it was the other way around, or if it was canons/ocs or literally anything else. The second you are going to dictate to me who I can write with and how, then I will immediately lose interest. Your blog, your rules of course, but miss me with that.

News flash: You don't get a pass to steal and repost art just because you're a roleplay blog. It's still wrong, no matter how much it fits your muse.

I know this is hardly a unique feeling, but it sucks being absolutely nobody's favorite for a long time. I'm tired of constantly being torn between wanting to compete for my mutuals' attention and the notion of waiting patiently and just… being there, consistently, hoping that somehow that will translate into being considered worth the time and consideration I push in. I'm a grown adult who feels like the kid who never gets picked for group assignments in class. I don't know, just wanted to get it off my chest.

There's a popular psa post going around claiming 'you're not being ignored by your partners.' It goes on to say that even if your partners are replying to everyone else, it's just your jealousy and insecurity that makes you think you're being ignored. While that may be true in some cases, it's also downright naive and manipulative to insist your mutuals would never ignore you. We all know the rpc has a bad communication issue. There ARE absolutely many people who would rather ignore you than straight up tell you they've lost interest.

hot take: roleplayers who don't have super fancy and detailed graphics are usually much better at writing AND better at actually communicating and not being flaky

No I’m not going to change how my muse behaves to fit with your shipping desires. That’s not how RP works

“Writing my OC is Hard, no one asks me about the stuff I want to talk about.” You're getting engagement, more than I usually see on OC blogs. People love your muse, interact all the time, send memes and asks. If you have a topic you want to discuss specifically, why not make a post about it, write headcanons or an analysis or do a write up on it. Instead, you try and guilt trip followers because you're not getting asked questions on a specific thing you want to talk about

why is it that is seems like no one reblogs promos anymore? everytime someone promos their post these days it's just crickets.

It's kind of annoying that people have all this bad stuff to say about me or assume about me here when most of what I 'did' was due to being young and inexperienced with life and socializing (autism AND glass child life yaaayyy….) or taking steps to better my environment and who I surrounded myself with at the time. IE: Blocking someone as soon as a reliable source told me they were talking shit behind my back, in addition to already having suspicions that they had been doing that for a LONG time. Was it handled gracefully on my end? Probably not, but there's no real graceful way to remove someone who actively spoke badly about me, but never told me anything directly. Especially if they decided to get loud and public about me having blocked them. I tried to make it a silent, uneventful block, but…. they decided to make it public under assumptions that were not true. Idk man. If they all want to still adhere to assumptions that were never true in the first place, it's whatever. Still stings sometimes though, but thankfully ONLY sometimes.

True, there may be some people who will write with my female OCs of color but I can’t always be the one who makes an effort reaching out to people and engage with others. Not many will do that but when it comes to a white male OC muse with a popular FC they do a bare minimum yet they still get so many interactions. See the goddamn problem here how we’re always at the bottom and we get treated unfairly?

However, I don’t think I have ever felt such a wave of unbridled hatred towards another person before because they made my escapism crutch such a space of anger and dread. Luckily, despite their accusations of my own character, I knew to take a step back, breathe and then act. I was able to work out that my anger towards this person was because of my need to be able to ignore what was happening elsewhere in the world and not because they had formed an absurd opinion about me and took a disliking to my muses on whatever witch hunt they were on. I was still angry at them don’t get me wrong, but they didn’t deserve actual hatred, it was just easier for me to channel my frustrations about the world and project it onto them for what they were doing to me. They simply didn’t know how to curate their own space and sought to police the rpc based only on their personal preference. They also seemed to struggle to differentiate between fictional writing and reality and thought because I wrote these muses, I must also be a villain. I blocked every single account that so much as liked any of the callout posts or that sent any abusive ask or IM. I went as far as to check their blogs and any untagged posts about my muses and blog and blocked any of their mutuals who interacted there too. I never publicly responded in anger to this group. Just removed all of them from my space without engaging any of them. It’s been a much easier ride since, no hate, no tags to abusive posts claiming unhinged things about me because of my muses. Just me and my friends carrying on and not even a whisper from the witch hunt which didn’t affect who wrote with me, what I wrote or how. I let them have their opinions, didn’t put a word of it on my blog and silently removed them from my space. I wish the initial person who started it all had just blocked and moved on since they felt so offended by the initial muse. It would have been so simple. All that to say, if you’re not hurting anyone in your rps and you and your friends are having a grand old time, then carry on. Block the haters, they get bored when you don’t take their bait apparently. You’re doing fine. But also remember with everything else happening, it’s worth taking a moment to step back and put it into perspective. My emotions were running high because of the state of reality and it’s very likely theirs were too. It just all got blown out of proportion. I’ve seen big arguments here about blocking and the occasional confession about being confused why a blog has blocked someone they never interacted with. I hope my story provides an answer to that and that blocking strangers isn’t bullying them when you yourself are made into a target by someone who can’t work out how to curate their own space without loudly and viciously making their thoughts known with total disregard for you as another human being. Block away I say, it’s been much nicer since for me.

Can we please, PLEASE stop asking for RP on anon. I'm not going to agree to write with someone or agree to check out someone's blog when I have no idea who I'm talking to. You can say maybe the person is shy or has anxiety or whatever, but it really just feels like a way to get around people's rules, especially when they're mutuals only like me.

I didn't say no and drop you because I'm misogynistic or hate female OCs. I dropped you because not only did you break multiple rules of mine, you were only trying to get smut out of me. You tried to insert sexual tension right off the bat, made every single interaction turn sexual when it made no sense to, you were very obviously trying to push something I clearly said I didn't want. Not to mention you couldn't shut up about how hot you thought my muse's faceclaim was. Sometimes it is in fact YOU and not the gender of your muse.