confessions by and for roleplayers

it's incredibly discouraging when you're trying to make friends on this site and it's like everyone else expects you to do the work of friend making. or they have their own groups. or everyone that complains about wanting more friends wants to make friends with ONE specific person or group and that is not you. it kinda sucks man. i'm constantly stepping out of my comfort zone to connect with people and people are not doing the same for me. i'm tired of it.

your muse having a tragic backstory and my muse having a tragic backstory does NOT mean we are participating in the oppression olympics. i'm fucking tired of you trying to make it seem like your muse has it worse when they BOTH had it equally bad!!!! just because my muse isn't an asshole and doesn't lash out doesn't mean they're not both severely traumatized and coping in different ways. i treat your muse with the respect they deserve and acknowledge when they are struggling with something. i don't water down their trauma for the prospect of making yours comfort mine. I ROUTINELY ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THEY'RE BOTH IN AWFUL POSITIONS. why the fuck am i constantly keeping your muse and mine in mind when it comes to discussions about how they cope and how they behave, but you seem to "forget" to do so ooc. ic--i don't care. ooc, it pisses me off bc why the fuck am I doing all the thinking???? people in this rpc need to stop being so fucking selfish. you want all these angsty plots and threads but you only want to focus on your own muse like come the fuck on. i'm not a bot. i'm not an ai. if you keep treating me like a scenario generator where your muse is the Star, i'm gonna start softblocking people over it. this is a hobby and i want to enjoy it without this bs. no one has the bandwidth to plot effectively or have a serious discussion but I supposedly have to for every single fucking person i come across or NO ONE will do anything. and to anyone saying "oh but what if" and wants to throw in some completely unrelated ooc explanation-- respectfully, shut up.

I will no longer reply to starters, random prompts or memes of partners that 1. owe me replies and 2. I have noticed dropping threads left and right (despite claiming to be 'sooo excited for it'). Why should I invest time, motivation and inspiration on writing anything for you at this point if you don't acknowledge my writing and never reply to it? I am done with leeches just wanting dopamine kicks through 'receiving replies' but then never doing anything with those replies. Not even likes.

Anyone else ever encounter rpers that have awful grammar and spelling mistakes galore, to the point its actually a pain to read whatever they're writing as a reply? No commas. No periods. Every sentence feels incomplete and proceeds to go onto another thought without finishing the first. Like wtf? I thought- maybe its a language barrier but after reading the mun page, that's apparently not the case. I know literacy rates are tanking with the younger population but holy shit. This is kinda bad.

I usually love it when my mutuals interact with one another like… with the idea of being able to trust them because they've interacted with me enough to know that, if I actively interact with them it means they're safe people to interact with. I'm very picky, because I'm quite tired of the bullshit. However, if someone never interacts with me and is a silent spectator that has little to no intention of interacting with me (especially if I made efforts to do so) it rubs me the wrong way. Makes me feel like a tool rather than a roleplay blog. It's an icky feeling. I hate when people do that :/

It annoys me when someone has their muse as labeled pan/bi without even mentioning a lean but ONLY intends to ship their muse with the member of one gender. No one owes me or anyone else anything, I get that. But why do get people's hopes up? All they ever talk about is men, all they ever reblog is het stuff, all their ships are with men.

Every time I see a promo tag saying ‘I’m looking for more people to rp with!’ I normally follow those blogs but never followed me back. Just admit it you only want attention to certain people, not anyone.

I hate how people in the replies of confessions will straight up antagonize you for situations they have one sentence of context for. I hate how much it's made me feel the need to over-explain my own negative emotions because somebody or something in the RPC made me feel shitty. The one time I didn't preface something with a million disclaimers or give a dissertation on my intentions, unsurprisingly there were people jumping down my throat in the replies. No, I can't provide more context for the sake of privacy nor am I gonna try to skirt around the blog rules. I shouldn't have to hold your hand through a random vent post. What gets me is that this is just another microcosm of tumblr's general culture of: "Hmm, I see you mentioned having an anger response to something. You have 15 seconds to explain every single little nuance of your situation to me or else I'm going to start accusing you of shit via call-out post." I thought the point was that we all hated this shit. Other times I can tell it's just somebody taking an anonymous vent way too personally. Not every post is about you or your personal situation. I'm sorry if you've had bad experiences in the past but I can assure you that mine and yours aren't 100% the exactly the same. Stop projecting onto me when I'm a faceless stranger just trying to air out bad thoughts.

Listen. If I like your starter call and send you memes, but you never write me that starter and never send any memes back, it's disrespectful. I see you only ever reply back and forth excessively with the same person, never with anyone else. Just be honest and say you are exclusive with that one person. Why even bother posting starter calls when you only write with that one bestie anyway? I unfollowed you. I won't even bother to softblock, you can unfollow me yourself for all I care.

If there's one thing I've learned from being on this hellsite at least ten years? It's that people absolutely have double-standards. They'll tell you that you are on here too much, but the minute you step away and try to make time for yourself, they will drop you for not being active. The ultimate thing I've pulled away from how things have gone recently is that people are unwilling to get out of their own little cliques and would rather sit and watch others burn like Nero watching Rome, rather than try and actually engage with someone they don't know.

I think some people would benefit from writing fanfiction for their muse/ship of choice rather than waiting around forever for the ‘right’ partner to find them. This is especially the case if they have such a strong vision that it’s difficult for another person to fit exactly what they have in mind.

‘I don’t know what I’m doing wrong and I prefer to communicate so I’m gonna take a break so and so’ Well bro, you broke mutuals with me first, and I don’t know what I did wrong, either. The fact that we have regular threads confuses me too. Maybe because your muse is a white canon male who likes to fuck everyone while I write an aro ace female of color muse and I prefer platonic friendships. It all makes sense to me now.

'I am taking a break from this blog, I am now on my other blog in that other fandom' -> is not mentioning the blog name or url. So what, do you want us to grovel at your feet to give us your 'new shiny'? Tired of this behavior. I don't mind people moving blogs a lot as long as they communicate and follow me on their own without making me chase after them all the time. But teasing to be active on a new blog but not even posting said blog? And I know they have no drama to their name.

Sometimes I really hate keeping quiet about what happened back then between me and that one particular person. I don't make a habit of vaguing on my blog. I keep any conflicts with me and someone else relatively private and only tell a select few in DMs if it comes up. Yet that person made most everything public and their vendetta against me was made known to many. To this day I think people still believe them. Granted, many people actually ASKED about my side of things after hearing theirs, and immediately changed their opinion. They realized this person had the gift of gab and was being untruthful. Untruthful enough to the point they started to write/roleplay with me, despite it making the other person mad. So… why am I still bothered? Trauma probably? Idk. I just want to roleplay with people again without fear that certain people still believe some false accusations made about me years ago. Without fear of being hatefollowed. Why is that so hard? I would love to reach out to more folks but… ugh.

My confession? I know it probably won't be taken well by some, but this blog is designed for this right? If you have in your rules that I HAVE to write with your female muses in order to write with your male muses, then I'm out. Even if I came to your blog because your female muses interested me, the second I see that kind of rule, I'm exiting your blog. I'm not going to be forced to interact with muses who may not be to my taste in order to earn the chance to write with the ones who are. And before anyone says anything, yes I would say the same if it was the other way around, or if it was canons/ocs or literally anything else. The second you are going to dictate to me who I can write with and how, then I will immediately lose interest. Your blog, your rules of course, but miss me with that.

News flash: You don't get a pass to steal and repost art just because you're a roleplay blog. It's still wrong, no matter how much it fits your muse.

I know this is hardly a unique feeling, but it sucks being absolutely nobody's favorite for a long time. I'm tired of constantly being torn between wanting to compete for my mutuals' attention and the notion of waiting patiently and just… being there, consistently, hoping that somehow that will translate into being considered worth the time and consideration I push in. I'm a grown adult who feels like the kid who never gets picked for group assignments in class. I don't know, just wanted to get it off my chest.