𝕮𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖏𝖎𝖙𝖆 𝖒𝖆𝖑𝖆

Do you think that makes sense??? Missing the experience someone gave you but not him exactly. I miss his essence and vibe but not him. What is he up to? Last he told me 3 years ago he still didn't have custody of his kid and he worked at a shell gas station... which I know I dodged a bullet with him. I wonder if he thinks of me as much as I think of him and us that summer.

In a weird era of my life where I think it's time to reinvent myself in a way I've always wanted to look. I've played with a lot o aesthetics before but the reality is nothing has really stuck because it didn't feel like me. I've always been drawn to alt/emo/goth aesthetics, philosophy, and fashion. Yet, when being raised in an evangelical household you're told that stuff is demonic or evil/stanic There is nothing evil about liking rock music or wanting dark hair or wearing black clothes. I want to start experimenting with my fashion and how I want to dress without feeling self-conscious. I am my own person, and it's time I stopped dressing and became someone I thought I was supposed to be.