Strawberrygay

I just commented on yt to a comment on a parody video. i needed a date for my joke, so i came up with “let’s meet in 110 years, august 15th, on the 4th floor of cecil hotel”. i just randomly came up with those details out of now where, and now, if i’ll stay alive for anything, it’s bc i’m curious if i just named the date and place of something that’ll actually happen. in 110 years i’ll be 127, going on 128, so i’m thinking it’s not completely impossible! lol. if you’re alive on that date too, meet me there ;) or not, bc who knows, mabey i predicted the time n place of smt horrible.. well to be fair we’d be beyond our time of death anyways, so who cares, meet me there;))

sometimes i worry about this one tic i have. or well it’s a few different variants, but they all end the same. it ends with me holding my breath and stiffening my whole body until i have to reach for air bc it feels like i will pass out. it feels scary because when i finally breath my heart skips a beat, and then beats weirdly a few times. i know it’s nothing on its own, but they often happen ontop of eachother for a while. it comes and goes. has pretty much only happened at home and happens mostly when i go to bed. i’m just scared that i am fucking up my body and heart. idk, i also feel like a lot of ppl with tic disorders have these breathing tics, and they seem fine, so it’s probably not too dangerous. atleast i don’t have as much o0f this one breathing tic where i used to breath in too many times and just breath weirdly, and i did it so much that eventually my whole body would feelo like a fizzy drink or static, and my eye would start twitching, and sometimes more parts of my face, and my arms and body could kinda go numb. so it’s a good thing i don’t have that as frequently

i started school today. it went both good and bad. i feel like i’ll never get close friends ever again. my closest friend i met before pre-school, and my best friend ever i met at 12 going on 13. now we don’t have contact and i haven’t connected to anyone since. i have one friend, or kinda 2 at this new school, but we pretty much only talk about school, a few sentences about what we did in the weekend, and a little bit about socialising being hard. we’ve only actually laughed with eachother like possibly 5-7 times in 1 year. and it was just a small but actually genuine laugh. i keep forgetting how old they are, where they’re from, and like most things about them, and they are the same, lol. i try to talk to people, but i just come to a stop right away, and if they don’t keep talking to me i just can’t come up with anything to say. i feel like a robot. the only time i can really be myself is at home, with my mom. it’s been like this for soon 4 years. it sucks. i feel like it’ll never change. i’m just too tired to even want anything in life.

did anyone else notice that youtubes like button was black when you pressed it for a few days, but now it’s blue again? or mabey there was something wrong with my yt? confused

ok, Nanno supremacy, BYE-

I’d be afraid of having a baby, because like.. the amount of times i drop my phone every day is concerning

Also, it was obvious that i was queer. Like omg how was i ever even confused

Bye bye world, next i'll either be sweating in a fursuit or locked in an asylum :)

(Ppl, don't start smoking ok, idk how to get out of this, lmao fuck, also addiction runs in my family :))))