The Complications Of Survival

Photograph everything. Go out in early in the morning, and photograph everything from every possible angle. Make as many mistakes as possible. Thousands of mistakes. Hundreds of thousands of mistakes. Don’t try to take the right photograph. Try to take as many photographs as you can. Then go home, look at all your pictures. Decide what YOU like. Don’t decide what’s correct. Decide what YOU think is beautiful. Go to sleep. Wake up. Repeat. By doing this, you’ll develop your own style that makes you happy and gives you a sense of freedom and discovery.

whatever the year we are in, your life will always be of your making

I’m always torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone to let them know exactly what is in my head and keeping it to myself. The problem is being unhappy and consistently so pushes people away, no matter if they say they’re always there to listen there is only so much even your best friends can listen too. On the other hand, to pretend everything is fine is to poison yourself from the inside out; it is to ignore who you are and lose yourself. So which is better – to have friends that think you are melodramatic, attention seeking and pessimistic or to drown in your own mind?

In my defense, he was beautiful. In my defense, he made butterflies when I thought I wasn’t a flower made to bloom. In my defense, he was warm and languid when all I remember were cold and stiff mornings. In my defense, In my defense he loved me.

One day someone will walk into your life and get it right where everyone else got it wrong. One day you won’t have to wait for a call or a text back. One day you won’t be the only one giving your all. One day you’ll finally meet someone who wants to help you grow in life. One day you’ll finally meet someone who isn’t afraid to give “love” another chance. One day you’ll finally meet someone you can trust with everything. One day you’ll have your best friend, your biggest supporter and your teammate all wrapped up into one person.

me: these are just fictional characters