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It feels odd. I feel like odd one out

Everyone else is wishing everyone else happy new year, being happy, having fun and me? I don't feel excited when the date comes around. I feel nothing and once it happens? I feel worse. My mind just keeps going back to all those amful memories of every new year ruined. Of every new year night i spend crying. Every new year night i spend in another room, while my family was drunk and shitting on me. List goes on

It's not just a new year thing. It's like this with all holidays. I feel bad during them. I dread them even more. But that's just how i am. Odd one out

Fucking help me

Today's one was short. Kind of like uhh, if trolls took over earth or something type of scenario. Humans live in these dorms and good lord, they look amful. Like out of a horror movie type amful, but the trolls are willing to provide some accomodations at least. The dorm buildings are connected to some other troll controlled buildings, andd, humans are allowed to go back and forth between them. I wouldn't say that the trolls were cruel? Not really. They treated humans alright, most of them did. But still, really weird. From homestuck characters i clearly remember seeing both Serkets and Porrim, don't think i saw anyone else. Didn't interacted with either of them, because my dream self was too scared to do so, which is fair enough. Serkets were seemingly part of a health department, helping sick humans. Porrim seemed to be watching over the dorm building, so im assuming there's a job for that too, for whatever reason. I think that's all

This is Enji. My moms chihuahua. He got upset because i gave him a piece of one of my nuggets as a treat and aren't giving him more. He just keeps looking down and looking up at me

This is also him earlier today asking for belly rubs and giving me looks when i would stop

Apparently me having dreams about Striders three nights in a row wasn't enough!!!

This is a very vague recollection of the dream because i only remember it in fragments u_u"

In one fragment Roxy ambushed me and stabbed me in the neck(ironically i woke up with the stabbed part of my neck hurting. It still hurts. Ouch). I remember seeing purple and violet before and after the stab. Pretty sure the purple was on her weapon and the violet was supposed be my blood? Shrugs, im guessing. But the fragment ended after that, like, stab and sudden darkness. But i do remember feeling the pain from the stab, so again, ouch

Another fragment, i remember being in some room in some high building, looked like a living room, maybe a bedroom? I remember i was there with alpha Rose and Dave's Bro. Fun combo. Amazing even/sarc. From what i can remember, the curtains were closed and i wasn't allowed to leave for whatever reason. When i opened the curtains and looked out the window, i looked down and saw John, Jade and Jane staring back at me. They all wore the same black suit with green cuffs, and i couldn't see their eyes behind their glasses. The second they saw me looking at them, they immediately rushed into the building i was in. Rose said something about this being stupid, told me to get in bed, and dismissed my worries about those three rushing here. Don't remember if Bro said or did anything. I did got in bed, like Rose said, and a few seconds later those three rushed into the room, peeking at me and asking questions i couldn't understand. Rose did stood in a way that she was blocking me from them, but I clearly remember her looking at me and saying "she was just napping" and after that my alarm went off "see? I wasn't lying" and i woke up right after

Pretty sure there was another fragment between those two? But from it i only vaguely remember walking around my hometown, it almost looked abandoned, like there was some apocalypse. And i briefly remembered seeing Dave looking at me, giving me a wave. Again. But that's all i remember u_u

That's uhh. Version of Dirk i made for my twt rp account (@holoMechanic + his strawpage)

I love this guy

I've been seeing Dave in my dreams for 3 nights in the row now. The first time i saw him, he waved at me, gave me a thumbs up and that was it. For next two dreams he just watches me

But in today's dream, besides him, i also saw Dirk, who uhh. Just stared at me like deer in headlights and that was about it

In either case

Embracing yumeshipping yahoo