What is this about me learning to keep my mouth shut? Am I not allowed to worry about you now? That's hardly fair. (Or hardly ferre? Would you change who I am, Enjolras?) But seriously, we need to touch base sometime soon. Life has been keeping us far too busy lately and I miss having quality time with you.
*sighs* ā¦.I know āferreā¦ Iām sorry. I was tired and my frustration at what I what I was working on got the better of me. I know you worry and I donāt mean to invoke thatā¦ I apologize for doing so as well as my words earlier.Ā And yes, please. We need to talk far more than we have been ā I miss you tooā¦
Iām sorry as well ā if you want me to be more careful with whom I vent to when you are involved, I can be. It is your life and Iām not trying to control it, I just get to the point where I need, well, I need to talk and vent with someone. (Bouncing ideas is best with you and Courfeyrac of course, but our entire group is pretty trustworthy, and everyone has such interesting and unique points of view.)
Sometime next week we should meet up maybe? I know my house is an entire mess, and I doubt yours is much better, (I donāt mind, but I know it can make sprawling out more difficult) maybe going for coffee/tea would be best? And then from there if we want to.
Or if you are too busy, we can always just keep a running conversation ā you know how to contact me. That might not be bad even with the other, to be honest. But let me know what works for you.
I would love to meetā¦ I should probably have gotten out for a bit earlier ā I donāt think I can stare at these walls for much longer without going completely mad.Ā And I understand āferre. It is that time of year and I think we all just need to remember that everyone is going through the same thing. A little understand goes a long way, and what better way to do that then to talk face to face?Ā I shouldnāt have shut myself away like that and I do need to apologize to everyone for my sudden absence and letting everyone down like that. I have an obligation to them as much as I do to everyone else around me ā perhaps even more so. Perhaps I should schedule a meeting for the near future.. touch base with everyone and understand what has been going on so we can move forwardsā¦..Ā
Honestly, I thought you were avoiding me due to the pokemon thing. Which would be silly, but I'm allowed my irrational fears, right?
I think a lot of us have been shutting ourselves away too much lately, to be honest. Well, not Courfeyrac, or Bahorel, and you'd be hard-pressed enough to separate Joly and Bossuet (at this point does the two of them cloistering themselves away together count on the same level, should the situation arise?) but still. A meeting wouldn't be bad, or at least touching base.
If you want, I can make you a google calendar with everyone's regular schedules if you want to see when might be even good to try meeting.
But even if it's just us, or just virtual, it will be good.
You're not letting anyone down though, you always do amazing work, and it isĀ far too easy to get lost in it. And I'm always in awe of your results, no matter what form they take. You are amazing, and I hope you know that.
