Save it

I need a do over, I can't live with the choices I've made, I've hurt too many of the people I care about and feel like there's no chance of me fixing it ever again, I'm a screw up and a scumbag, I need to go away for ever I'm so sorry

I don't deserve to be alive, someone is always going to be so much stronger than me and I am nothing, my writing is shit now, my mental state is shit now, I am nothing, I don't want to wake up in the morning, I want to just go in my sleep and fuck work and fuck myself, I need to scream and take my anger out but I'm just so tired, I'm tired of being me.

I can't stop ducking crying I don't want to be like this anymore I want to die

I wanna cuddle and look at clothes together