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I really hope this doesn't sound rude but... what you describe is not even normal for farm people either. I have relatives who live on farms and they still put their shoes outside, wash their hands, don't let flies walk on their food and respect basic food safety.
Like they don't mind the smells and all and they obviously get their work clothes dirty, which is something that would be difficult for someone with OCD, but it has to be done after all. What you describe though just isn't normal at all and why are they letting a kid pee on the floor. Poor kid
No worries I don’t find your message rude at all.
And I wonder where you live? Like is it a national-cultural thing as well I’m wondering too.
So in Germany because the country is much smaller than the US all the farms are near each other (as opposed to Ohio where I’m from where the farms are very specious). So most of our neighbors are farmers as well. And a few farms here are very clean and organized but there are two that are horrendous, even my in-laws farm is not that bad. And it makes me think if they treat their farm like that then I wonder how their homes must look like. One farmer’s farm smells so bad that it stinks up his entire street (like we live far enough away that it doesn’t affect us but when I walk past it it’s awful). I avoid walking there now. He has a pile of literal sh** right in front of his house I’m not exaggerating it’s a hill of literal sh**. It’s so bad that even his wife left him. The other farmer has junk everywhere and has random animals some of them escape and run onto the street. Not as bad but still crazy. Even my in-laws talk down about these farmers.
The streets here are filthy because of the tractors, my husband says it’s because the farmers are too cheap to put brushes behind their tractors to brush away the dirt. And then the people who walk around with their horses just let their horse sh** in the street and don’t clean it up. This is one reason why I absolutely hate horses now. Horse poop bigger than my head just right there in the middle of the road where people drive their cars and ride their bikes etc.
I hate walking outside I hate it here so much. I just miss living in the suburbs.
And then I’ve noticed there’s SO MUCH litter here as well. I made a post about it before but I’m shocked by how much Germans litter because the stereotype is that Germans/Europeans care about the environment. They also smoke a lot here so there’s cigarette buds all on the ground of the parking lots. Like I literally never want to hear an American complain that America is dirty again. Like maybe it is in poor ghetto areas, sure but not the suburbs we don’t have litter or cigarettes on the ground everywhere. Idk if it’s because we have more ash trays and more trash cans and also I think we have people who do community service who clean up litter on the side of the roads. My husband also looked it up and saw that Germans do smoke a lot more than Americans do… another thing I’m shocked by.
The people here also don’t cut their grass so the grass is just wild and looks really unhinged and dirty. I can go on and on. Also I made a post that some of the homes here are so old that they’re rotting and falling apart. Like I thought this was only a thing in the countryside but no even in a more suburban area the homes are just falling apart. One plays we drives by I couldn’t believe it. Like I know in America there’s really bad areas too which I hate but like the suburban areas are pretty and clean. Like !!! I have so much to say about this.
Nothing has made me appreciate my country so much than moving to another country.
And I’m sorry for the rant… as for my in-laws I think this is just the norm here idk. It freaks me out.
I have so much anxiety just living here.
The thing is I’m pretty sure my OCD wouldn’t be this bad if we lived in America closer to my family. Like I know my OCD is irrational at times but my husband’s family really does trigger it. I have a whole list of things they do that they don’t think is a big deal and idk like to me it’s a big deal like am I crazy?
1. They let flies walk on their food. Like it’s one thing to get a fly in your house and whatever that happens but bc they don’t have screens and we live on a farm so there’s more flies than normal - they have flies in their house and they just let the fly walk on their food like… don’t even try to swat them away.
2. My SIL’s husband makes food and lets it sit out overnight. Doesn’t put it in the fridge or anything. With flies in the house mind you. And people have died from leaving their food out too long (recommended time is no more than 2 hours) and eating it because of bacteria. Especially pasta which is what he usually leaves out. How this man hasn’t gotten severally ill idk. A miracle.
3. My SIL just had her daughter naked all the time and her daughter just pees on the floor or ground. And if she uses the potty she doesn’t wash her hands and I’ve seen them just take the pee from the potty and throw it into the trees/bushes like HELLO???
4. Walking in the house with their shoes on. Firstly you shouldn’t walk in the house with your shoes on at all but ESPECIALLY if you live on a farm. And my SIL one time when they were still living with us I had JUST gone to IKEA and bought a new rug and set it down in front of the front door. My SIL that SAME DAY came in and wiped literal HOURSE SH** on my new rug and just left it there. Honestly I’m too nice of a person because I really wished that I would have cussed her out for that. And told her to buy me a new rug bc wtaf? wtf? Am I the crazy one??
5. Another time with the rug situation I was vacuuming it up while I was heavily pregnant and it was EXTREMELY painful. Like I think I passed out after that because of how much energy it took out of me to do that bc I literally had zero core strength and then my SIL’s husband and comes in and dirties up the rug. I was so pissed
6. Also when I was pregnant and too sick to even get out of bed the house was a MESS bc I was the ONLY person cleaning the house. My SIL did eventually apologize to my husband - not me tho - for not helping out in the house as much. I literally felt like I was the house keeper bc they never helped clean. I was so happy when they moved out.
Honestly I hope I’m just overreacting and being paranoid instead of my gut feeling being correct

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Also rewashing all the clothes I LITERALLY JUST WASHED 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩
Also we don’t have a dryer so this is going to take forever.
Also rewashing all the clothes I LITERALLY JUST WASHED 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩
I want my husband to tell his family what’s going on with me bc my German isn’t good and it’s hard for me to explain things. Like how do I even explain this behavior in English let alone in a second language. I can’t even explain it in my own head why my brain is completely effed up now and I want to die
OCD makes me want to kill myself I swear I can’t take it anymore
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I am jealous of women who’ve had easy pregnancies… I’m over here still debating if I even want to go through that again… I do want more than one child but I’m scared to get pregnant again 😔
Y’know, no matter how hard I try not to compare myself to people I know in real life or online, I continue to let myself feel worse seeing a person’s happy moments on social media. Worse, I told myself maybe, just maybe if person A achieved x in their life, then so can I as I’ve been through a lot but I don’t see any light comes my way. When my mother was here, she told me that comparison is the thief of joy and I listened to her word and continued my day, like how she’s gone, I’m a shell of my former self. Constantly feel jealous and miserable that why I don’t get a happy ending? I tried a few novenas but hardly any success. Sometimes I wonder I felt so laidback or my faith is so small that so many unfortunate things are coming my way? Yesterday, I felt depressed and today I feel worse, despite getting a few laughs from TikTok, I went right back to feeling low. My mental health is already low, just as my menstrual health, what is next for me to feel low? I’m trying my best to be and stay positive but….
Also pray for me.
My daughter will only eat around me if she’s holding a banana 😣
Okay one cultural difference I realized is (and maybe it’s just specifically Ohio vs Northern Germany thing and not American vs all of Germany thing) that Americans are more “beat around the bush” and with Germans you have to be more direct. Like there’s been so many times where I’m like “oh idk, I don’t think so” when asked something I do not want to do. And Germans don’t get the hint. Like I have to just flat out say NO in all caps for them to get the hint. But as an American saying no like that seems really rude.
Certain things trigger my OCD so I really want to avoid them.

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