find your arrow, and shoot for the stars

HEY taylorswift SEE YOU IN DALLAS IN OCTOBER:)

Finding out you have cancer at any age is terrifying. I myself don't have cancer, and never have. But in general, finding out that you have any life-threatening illness must make a person feel cheated. You thought you were promised forever and then fate wakes you finite. And you know that teaches the human race a very applicable lesson. Sometimes, the peace and comfort lies in the unknown. Living life as it goes along not knowing what the future holds. Expecting another sunrise each day when it is not promised. Theres something important to be learned that we don't have to know our entire life plan at seventeen or know exactly what the rest of our lives are meant to be. There is a reason and plan for our lack of knowledge of that. I mean, if you knew everything that was going to happen, would life be interesting?

I'm asking God to find me a place here and to show me where I belong and who I should surround myself with because everyone just seems toxic right now

And you know I don't hate you. I actually love you very much. And I know everyone is starting to notice how distant I've been and so to all of you, even though you can't read this, I just hope you know that it's not you. I just kind of need to grow apart from everyone right now. I need to think for myself. I need to not deal with your problems. I need to not waste my breath exhaling advice you'll disregard anyways. I'm not special. Losing me is not going to kill you, I swear it. I just don't need a social life right now.