vitaminblogging once again but another thing that I keep finding very striking is how much more tolerable my environment is now that I have control over it. e.g. I don't like debris sticking to my bare feet and I prefer my carpets etc Pretty Clean, but previously I would have to ask my parents to vacuum for me which occurred once in a blue moon when a) I remembered and b) they had time. so I spent a lot of time vaguely uncomfortable because the floor was dirty. today I was vacuuming, because I can do that now, and I do that often now, and I was filled with the vitamin emotion once again, which is a sort of joyful horror about it all. I feel like I am discovering the sort of person I am and have maybe always been, and that sort of person is kind of a weirdo but not in the cool weirdo way, and this is glorious. I am healthy enough now that I know what my floor cleanliness preferences are. when I wasn't healthy enough to take these actions it was an ambient sort of misery I didn't register much because I couldn't fix it so why bother
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