back on track

Actually, it's a mixed feeling.

I'm a Sapphic, and I really love women.

I'm a feminist and I understand the negative influence of patriarchy in women's bodies.

I find judging other people's weights/promoting an ed is immoral and rude, so why am I this mean with myself? Why can't I love this woman shaped body?

Maybe bc I feel stuck with it, it's heavy and sore, and people aren't as polite as they were when I was thinner. Being at this weight is painful.

between meals: 3 strawberries w a chocolate bar

lunch: 1 tortilla with cheese and tomato, 2 boiled eggs

between meals: 1 croissant w 2 black coffees

dinner: french fries (needed mia's help)

steps: 14 296

I believe there's a little bit of progress, but it is not enough.

This morning, I told my friend that I wasn't feeling well and maybe last night's dinner was the reason. She asked what I ate, and when I told her, she just said, "Gross."

She's tall and skinny, so that meant a lot.

between meals: 3 strawberries

lunch: "tortilla" made with spinach, cheese, pepper, and egg

between meals: 3 strawberries and a lemonade

dinner: pizza w cheddar fries

steps: 6 760