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—◝✩| 𝑯𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠— but i genuinely had a lot of fun writing this… i haven’t posted a fic in a week because i’ve been busy it’s college and just writing my heeseung fic, so i thought i’d release something quick. this was requested!!!
The horror movie flickers across the screen, its eerie soundtrack filling the dim living room. Jungwon sits beside you on the couch, the shared blanket draped over both of your laps, his arm resting casually along the back cushions. The situationship between you feels easy tonight—just two people hanging out, no labels, no pressure. You lean into his side a little when a jump scare hits, and he chuckles softly, the sound warm and reassuring.
"It's just a movie," he murmurs, his voice low and steady. His fingers brush your shoulder through the blanket in a gentle squeeze. "I've got you."
The tension on screen builds again. Shadows twist, a sudden scream erupts, and your heart pounds. Without thinking, you duck fully under the blanket, curling against his thigh to hide from the next scare. The fabric tents around you, muffling the sounds, and you press closer to the solid warmth of his leg for comfort.
Your hand shifts instinctively as you adjust, brushing against something firm and unmistakable pressing against the soft grey fabric of his sweatpants. The massive outline of his erection strains there, thick and hard, the head clearly defined through the thin material. Heat radiates from it, and your fingers linger for a second longer than intended.
You freeze. Slowly, you pull the blanket back just enough to peek up at him. Jungwon meets your gaze, his cheeks flushed but his eyes dark with something more than embarrassment. The movie continues playing forgotten in the background. Neither of you speaks at first, the air thick with sudden awareness.
His hand comes up to cup your cheek, thumb stroking softly. "Hey… you okay?" The caring tone in his voice makes your pulse race for a different reason now. You nod, but your eyes drop back down to the prominent bulge in his sweatpants. He doesn't pull away or hide it. Instead, his fingers slide into your hair, gentle but guiding.
You shift closer under the blanket, your hand moving with more purpose this time. Your palm presses against the rigid length through the grey fabric, feeling it twitch and throb under your touch. Jungwon exhales sharply, his hips shifting slightly toward you. "Fuck… that feels good," he breathes, voice husky but still laced with that sweetness. "You can… keep going if you want."
Encouraged, you tug at the waistband of his sweatpants, easing them down just enough for his cock to spring free. It's massive, veined and flushed, the tip already glistening with precum. Your fingers wrap around the thick shaft, stroking slowly from base to head. Jungwon groans, his free hand resting on your shoulder, thumb rubbing circles there in a soothing rhythm.
"Just like that," he encourages, his tone caring even as his breathing grows heavier. "You're doing so well." You lean in, your lips brushing the sensitive head, tasting the salty bead of precum before taking him into your mouth. Your tongue swirls around the crown as you suck gently at first, then with more pressure, bobbing your head to take more of his length.
Jungwon’s fingers tighten in your hair, not forcing but holding you steady. "God, your mouth feels incredible," he whispers, hips rocking up in shallow thrusts that match your rhythm. Saliva coats his cock as you work him deeper, your hand stroking what doesn't fit. He reaches under the blanket to find your free hand, lacing your fingers together in a tender grip while you suck him off.
The movie's screams fade into background noise. You pull off his cock with a wet pop, strings of spit connecting your lips to the glistening tip. Jungwon pulls you up from under the blanket, guiding you to straddle his lap. His hands settle on your hips, thumbs stroking the skin beneath your shirt. "Come here," he says softly, leaning in to kiss you. The kiss starts slow and sweet, his tongue exploring gently, before turning heated as your bodies press together.
You grind down against his bare cock, the hard length sliding along your clothed pussy. Heat builds between your legs. Jungwon breaks the kiss to trail his lips along your jaw. "Can I touch you?" he asks, always checking, always caring. You nod, and his hand slips between your bodies, fingers dipping under your waistband to find your wet folds. He rubs slow circles over your clit, drawing a moan from you as he works you open with patient strokes.
"So wet already," he murmurs against your neck, nipping lightly. Two fingers slide inside your pussy, curling to stroke that sensitive spot while his thumb keeps pressure on your clit. You rock against his hand, chasing the building pleasure. Jungwon watches your face, eyes full of affection even as his cock throbs untouched against your thigh.
When you're dripping and ready, he withdraws his fingers and helps you lift up. You reach down to line his thick cock up with your entrance, the head nudging against your slick pussy. Inch by inch, you sink down onto him, stretching around the massive girth. Jungwon holds your hips steady, whispering praises. "That's it… take it slow. You're so tight and perfect."
Once he's buried fully inside you, you both pause, breathing together. His hands roam your back under your shirt, skin to skin, grounding you. Then you start to move—lifting and lowering, riding him in steady rolls of your hips. Jungwon meets each descent with upward thrusts, his cock filling you completely with every stroke. The wet sounds of your bodies joining mix with soft moans.
He leans forward to suck one of your nipples through your shirt, teeth grazing just enough to make you clench around him. "Fuck, yes," he groans, one hand sliding down to rub your clit again in time with your movements. The dual stimulation pushes you closer to the edge. Your pace quickens, pussy fluttering around his thick shaft as orgasm builds.
Jungwon senses it, his free hand gripping your ass to help guide you. "Come for me," he urges sweetly, voice strained with his own pleasure. "I've got you." Your climax hits hard, walls pulsing and gripping him as waves of pleasure crash through you. You cry out, burying your face in his neck while he fucks you through it with steady thrusts.
As you come down, he flips your positions carefully, laying you back on the couch with him on top. The blanket tangles around your legs but stays mostly in place. Jungwon hooks your knees over his elbows, spreading you wide as he drives back into your sensitive pussy. His thrusts grow deeper, more purposeful, the head of his cock hitting that perfect spot inside you with every stroke.
"You feel so good," he pants, sweat beading on his forehead. His caring gaze never leaves your face, checking for any sign of discomfort even as he pounds into you. You reach up to pull him down for another kiss, tongues tangling as your bodies slap together. One of his hands finds yours again, fingers interlacing above your head.
The second orgasm builds faster. Jungwon angles his hips to grind against your clit with each thrust. "Come again," he whispers against your lips. "Let me feel you." Your pussy clamps down on his cock as pleasure overtakes you once more, milking him hard. Jungwon groans loudly, his rhythm faltering. With a few final deep thrusts, he buries himself to the hilt and cums, hot spurts of cum flooding your pussy.
He collapses gently on top of you, careful not to crush you, his cock still twitching inside as the last waves of his orgasm fade. Both of you breathe heavily, the movie now showing credits. Jungwon presses soft kisses to your temple, your cheek, your lips. "You okay?" he asks again, voice tender. His hand strokes your hair back from your face.
You nod, smiling up at him. He eases out slowly, cum leaking from your well-fucked pussy onto the blanket. Jungwon grabs a tissue from the side table to clean you up gently, then himself, before pulling you into his arms under the blanket. The horror movie ends, but neither of you moves to turn it off. Instead, he holds you close, fingers tracing lazy patterns on your skin.
"Stay like this a while?" he asks quietly. You settle against his chest, his semi-hard cock resting against your thigh, the afterglow warm and sweet. The situationship feels a little less undefined in the quiet moment, but for now, the closeness is enough.
A red ribbon bra - Engagement - Two Truths and a Lie… - Getting Even After a Break Up… - I’ll Win You Back. Don't Worry... Do you forgive me? - Making Rafe late to the masked gala… - Snooze… Putting Rafe on the Jumbotron
🇱🇴🇸🇹 🇹🇮🇲🇪 - After an accident leaves you with no memory of your relationship, you struggle to recall the love you once shared with Rafe. Even though you've forgotten your past, you still feel your connection. Rafe isn't just waiting for you to remember either; he's ready to make you fall in love again.
Feelin Lucky - When you're getting hit on by a loser at your local college bar “boyfriend” Rafe comes in to save the day.
College/rafe x reader - Rafe’s best friend helps him make the best of his buzz cut era and he gets whatever he’d like in exchange.
Thin Ice - NHL!Rafe gets caught smiling at the Ice Girl after scoring a goal on his way back to the bench; his winning night just turned into a loss—now he needs to make it right
Good Girl - After a few drinks at a hockey party, Rafe gets teased about what a good girl you are, but Rafe knows the truth
By: @angelicstarkey
atta girl - sucking bsf!rafe off while he's on the phone
no one compares - a little tension mixed with a suggestive tiktok might just be the way to tip Rafe over the edge.
ride it right - your valentine's day tradition has quite the interesting twist after you confess something to your roommate
By: @mrsbarnesblog
distraction - you were sent by your friend to distract Rafe Cameron while they were stealing the map from his house
real estate - Rafe and your boyfriend are working on a project together, and you both can’t help the attraction you feel from day one. He can’t miss an opportunity to show that you can do better.
By: @anon-188
seven minutes of heaven - victoria's secret fashion show, a backroom, and one very impatient rafe cameron.
sports car - rafe got a new car. he wanted to show off. you wanted to show him up
someone who lets you break them twice by: @itneverendshere
sex ban by: @artemisiasmuse
Jealousy Falls - your situationship gets jealous when he finds out that your childhood friend is coming to visit. by: @morguesiren
SYNOPSIS. you finally bagged the man of your dreams after all that time spent chasing him. your relationship was fine until it wasn’t. location turned off, texts being left on read, and even cheating rumors. you try to get out of the relationship but you just can’t, and it turns into a messy cycle you keep getting pulled back into. until you meet keonho, fell in love at first sight. that would’ve been perfect except you already have a boyfriend. will you stay with your boyfriend or go through drama just to get with keonho?
SIX. holy airball ✌️🥀🥀
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AUTHOR NOTE. they finally interact!! now all we have to do is get rid of woojin 😁😁
synopsis you just found out your boyfriend of two years cheated on you, even though he was a toxic asshole who couldn't treat you right, you were heart broken. deciding to go out with your childhood friend jungwon, you run into one of his close friends, nishimura riki. which began the journey of your relationship filled with ups and downs, and an ex who wont leave you alone.
note bye i forgot to make my daily appearance with a note, anyway first date and no i’m not going into detail cuz idc they had a good time tho!! yn redemption arc or what!! (it won’t last long)
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.𖥔 ݁ SYNOPSIS . after getting publicly broken up with because of a misspread rumor, you move away to "heal" and "start over". when you come back after months and see your ex and said person—who spread those rumors about you—getting closer each day, you realize maybe you shouldn't have ever come back. and it definitely doesn't help when your ex starts giving you mixed signals about everything.
PAIRING ex!jake x fem!reader
FEATURING aespa ningning, riize shotaro, nct haechan, le sserafim yunjin +enhypen
TAGS smau (+written) ; crack ; university au ; lots of miscommunication ; dumbass jake ; cringey moments ; cliche 𝓦 none that I can think of other than suggestive comments?
notes: heyyy i apologize for the shorter part than usual 🌝and for posting this sooo late after i teased it! i feel so bad for y/n in this chapter and i’m not super happy w it… i wanted to release some other works but this won the vote so i wanted to make sure this would be put out first :)) i also don’t know how to continue this next part without adding another written portion so that may be up next haha even tho i just wrote one so i’m sorry about that as there might be a wait. more things WILL BE coming soon so please stay tuned!! 💗
synopsis: desperate to move on after a harsh break up, you move into a new apartment on the other side of the city. the only issue? you’ll have three male roommates. the other even bigger issue? you’re falling for the one who can’t seem to stand you.
warnings: (one sided) enemies to lovers, based off new girl, heeseung is nonchalant and sometimes mean for no reason, bad attempts at comedy im sorry, opposites attract, past trauma, yeonjun (txt), yunjin (le sserafim), jake, sunghoon, sunoo, and jungwon (enhypen)
roses thoughts: helloooo we're getting context gulp...even if i love heeseung the last thing you'll ever see me do is defend a man's shitty behavior
playlist: green light - lorde // actually romantic - taylor swift // house tour - sabrina carpenter // needy - ariana grande
𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⚘ ── love triangle. angst & some humor. smau.
⌞ lee heeseung x female reader x park sunghoon ⌝
synopsis ᛝ time and time again, heeseung has used you as an outlet to complain about the thousands of times women have done him dirty. but at this point in time, you’re fed up of hearing the same story over and over again. and somehow… you being friends with sunghoon is something he also problem has a problem with?
contents: profanity; jealousy; tension;
❁✿❀: if there are typos, i’ll fix them as i spot them😅…
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notes; heeseung… “keep me away from her”… also heeseung… “i can’t stay away from you” HAHAHA. this chapter actually made me feel nauseous as i wrote it, like i can’t even lie to you. but hit me with ur thoughts chat, i’d love to hear it all !!!
contents : mention of sex, strong language, accidental pregnancy, angst, pregnancy, fluff, humor, jealousy, social media au, friends with benefits, sexual references, suggestive content
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LISTEN. A similar riki fic but uno reverse and the reader is sick instead of Niki 🤤🤤🤤
includes: 990 words of fluff — but ALSO I mentioned vomiting and that might need a warning even if I didn’t describe it.
to explain the end, (and it sounds random), but I feel it in my bones that Ni-ki is the sweetest and most idealistic baby in the world
sick ni-ki ver.
♱⋆ཐི˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱𓆩^._.^𓆪♱⋆ཐི˚₊‧⁺ ⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱
It took a lot of convincing.
First, you wouldn’t let him stay; this was in the first day or so while you were still mostly you and while your symptoms were developing.
Then, you refused to let him do anything for you; you’d remember to take your own meds and you’d get yourself to take cold showers, leaving him with nothing to help with.
You’re like a stray cat that’s been picked up off the street; you clearly need taking care of, but you refuse to let him come near you for whatever reason and get snappy when he does.
But just like them, you’ll come to him when something is too hard.
Maybe it’s when you need to open a bottle of water or the pill bottles to take your medicine because you’re much weaker than you usually are.
Or when you’re feeling better and want to talk to him despite having told him previously that he’s irritating and overbearing.
That one hurt, but it makes sense that you wouldn’t want his hands on you or his body even remotely near yours when your fever is much higher than his ever was while he was sick.
“I’m sorry…” you say softly, standing off to the side where he sits on the couch.
He hadn’t even tried to make himself comfortable on the couch after you kicked him out of your room, which makes you feel worse for doing it in the first place.
Ni-ki looks up at you slowly, you’re looking down at your feet and your hands are fidgeting with themselves in front of you.
You’re much cuter when you’re sick—at least you are when you aren’t violently throwing up in the bathroom or blowing your nose every other minute—but that’s mean, and he can’t bring himself to actually be grossed out when you have no control over any of that.
“Don’t apologize…are you okay? Do you need something?” He asks softly, looking up at you while he rubs his chest absentmindedly.
You don’t answer too quickly, and he half expects you to tell him about something you need him to do.
“I wanna cuddle…”
Oh…
Oh.
He could tease you and remind you of what you said earlier, but he doesn’t want to take you out of it.
“Yeah?” He asks, straightening up to get up and go back to your room with you before you stand in front of him to stop him.
“Here…please…” you correct gently, walking around him to take up the space beside him.
He wasn’t sure what you wanted him to do, but he expected to lie down and let you lie on top of him.
Instead, you curl up beside him while you lay your head on his lap.
“This isn’t cuddling…” he chuckles softly, using his free hand to move strands of hair away from your face.
“Yes, it is.” You say firmly, closing your eyes as you nuzzle into him a little to get comfortable.
Ni-ki doesn’t say anything for now; instead, he uses this as a chance to check your fever with his hands.
You’re still pretty warm, but not as much as you’ve been these last few days.
Maybe this is why you want him nearby; you’re not in that constant state of discomfort from the heat.
“How are you feeling?” He asks, his voice low to not annoy you and ruin this for himself.
“Better…” you admit.
“Better.” He repeats, a small nod, “enough to have something to eat?” He asks, sliding his hand under your shirt to rub your back.
“I don’t know…I haven’t thrown up today, but maybe it’s because I haven’t eaten anything.” You sigh, too exhausted to really be reserved about this anymore.
“I get that, but you also can’t go an entire day without eating anything.” He reminds gently, watching you as you remain perfectly still against him.
“I can try and make you some soup, but I’d rather get you something good from any of the places you like…what do you think?” He offers.
You don’t respond right away, and he thinks you’re considering your options to give him an answer.
But you don’t say anything for minutes, and it’s only then that he realizes you fell asleep on his lap.
“Baby?” He calls out softly, wanting to see if he was right.
When you don’t answer, he can only sigh in slight disbelief before he picks his phone back up.
He really should have gotten comfortable before you laid on him like this.
He can already feel his legs aching, especially the one you’re lying on.
But he isn’t going to move you.
Instead, he leans back and orders soup from a restaurant you like, thinking he can always warm it up again when you wake up and if and when you feel better.
Unable to do much else after, he grows lazy with you on him like this and tries to sleep with you.
It takes him a little longer to do it though, so he braids your hair; just enough so the smaller strands can’t keep falling in front of your face and it’s just tight enough that it won’t unravel.
“I really need to get better at this…” he sighs softly, mumbling to himself as he pulls his hands back to analyze his work.
“Hmm…” you grumble, still asleep but somehow able to hear him.
“Sorry, sorry…” he says, even softer, almost a whisper; resting his hand on your head and gently stroking your hair.
“But it is your fault.” He adds, “how am I supposed to prove that I can take “in sickness and in health” seriously if you won’t let me take care of you?” He asks.
Oh, right…he does do that, doesn’t he?
When was the last time he’s had the chance to talk to you like this when you’re completely asleep and won’t remember later?
“I won’t hold it against you if you spend the last few days sick acting like this.”
Martin has been (choosingly!!) single his whole life and is fully convinced that he doesn't need a girl (or so he thought). Enter Seonghyeon's sister, who just finished studying from abroad, is freshly broken up, and wants nothing to do with men for the rest of her life. A girl that's hot, lowkey a bitch, and doesn't want him at all? Fuck, that's just his type.
MARTIN x F!RDR ━━ band au , best friend's sister trope , profanities , martin is down bad , ftr carmen & yuha h2h , stella h2h as yn's fc
𝗮𝘂𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗿’𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲: should i make it into full fic or something.
situationship!jungwon who always says you’re being overdramatic about him hanging out with other girls because you’re the only one that is important to him and the other girls don't matter.
situationship!jungwon who tells you every single small problem he has because he knows you’ll listen but when you’re the one who needs to be listened to suddenly he is really busy.
situationship!jungwon who comes over to movie nights at your house only because he wants to fuck with you afterwards.
situationship!jungwon who always begs to finish inside you and you can’t help but always give in when you see his whiny expression.
situationship!jungwon who always takes good care of you after sex and you always fall asleep on his arms.
you were laying still naked and exhausted after sex with jungwon because this man has no mercy, you were so fucked up that you didn’t even know what is your name because all you could remember is his name you moaned practically whole night.
then he wrapped his strong arms around your body burning his face in the crook of your neck and began kissing your neck not the hungry and messy type of kisses he did sometime ago now it was soft and caring kind of kisses and in between he whispers sweet stuff like.
“you did so good to me go to sleep now.”
situationship!jungwon who even though you always fall asleep in his arms after sex is never there when you wake up.
situationship!jungwon who when you two are alone is acting super clingy and sweet but the second his friends or other girls are in sight he’s all dry and cold.
just yesterday you two were sitting on his couch, he was cuddling you as you were doom scrolling through instagram so what could’ve possibly changed now?
oh yeah, his friends were there.
it was like 7 pm saturday, you were walking out of convenience store and you immediately spotted jungwon and some of his friends nearby laughing and talking about probably nothing important so you decided to approach him.
“hi jungwon.” you tapped his shoulder and he looked at you definitely not as excited to see you as you were to see him.
“oh, hi.” he said not so happy anymore, more like dry.
and before you could say anything else he interrupted you with “look i would’ve talked with you more but we have to go, see you around.” as he dragged rest of half confused boys with him but they all laughed it off leaving you completely confused and kind of embarrassed.
situationship!jungwon who always brush off your attempts to put any label on you two saying things like “isn’t what we have enough?” or uses physical affection to avoid this type of conversations.
situationship!jungwon who becomes sweeter and clingier when he feels like he’s losing you or you are becoming more independent so when before you were always the one texting first, proposing hangouts or movie nights now when he noticed you started gaining friends besides him he’s asking about your day, complementing you out of nowhere and giving you hope that maybe he wants something more than situationship because he knows you would love to finally be his girlfriend and his all time first choice not only when it’s relevant.
situationship!jungwon who mentions other girls around you just to test your reaction and let you know he can replace you at any moment so you depend on him.
“so what have you been doing all weekend?” you asked him, leaning your head on his shoulder while watching some boring movie one of your only friends recommended.
he could’ve lie, tell you he was out with the boys, he was studying or just busy with personal stuff but that would be even more boring than the movie you’re watching so he said the truth, besides any kind of relationship, friendship or situationship should be built on truth, right?
“i was out with sooha.” he answered unbothered.
“oh, cool.” you replied trying to seem fine but you got noticeably quieter after he said that and damn that shouldn’t feel like it but seeing you all sad like kicked puppy got him so excited because now you would want to make him feel good so he doesn’t want any other girls, only you.
situationship!jungwon who on the other hand when someone flirts with you is super jealous and starts to guilt trip you asking if he’s not enough or if you got bored of him and it always ends up with you apologising to him not even knowing for what exactly.
honestly it wasn’t even that big of a deal.
you were out and jungwon decided you should get something to drink and you proposed bubble tea.
jungwon chose something but you were still deciding or whatever to get yourself and then it came your turn to order.
“what can i get you?” cashier asked both of you but his eyes lingered on you.
“i would like to get jeju green tea bubble tea with tapioca pearls.” jungwon answered first.
“and what for you, pretty lady?” cashier chuckled.
“hmm i’m not sure, what do you recommend?” you asked casually but jungwon was already making face like he didn’t like whatever was going on.
“so maybe brown sugar milk tea and tapioca and i’ll give you a discount for you pretty eyes.” cashier now shamelessly flirted with you in front of jungwon which obviously was not cool with jungwon.
“don’t worry about it i’m paying and i have enough money to pay full price for both of us.” jungwon interrupted him.
“okay, i just proposed.” he chuckled awkwardly backing off at jungwon’s behaviour and after he already gave you your bubble tea you could see jungwon’s visibly sour expression.
“wonie what’s going on, why are you frowning?” you questioned him worryingly but his frown only deepened.
“you are dumb or pretending? he was clearly flirting with you and you played his little game if i wasn’t there by now he probably would have your number.”
“i didn’t mean to—” you began but he interrupted you.
“it’s fine whatever.” it was definitely not whatever.
“no i’m sorry okay? please, forgive me. let’s move on, i’ll never talk with him again. you are the only one i want to talk to.” you began to explain yourself desperately.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀i kept him like a secret but he kept me like an oath ❤︎ p.js
pairing : ex bf!jay x ex gf!reader
synopsis ⿻ content : you and jay were the ideal couple— cruising through high school and college together; known as nothing less than the definition of forever to most. you were both aware your futures held different stories; yet you still spent all of college hoping it would mesh into one. as you moved abroad to seoul to continue your studies, jay stays put in new york, settling into the corporate, white collar job he had always pined for. coming to reality with the fact that you cannot have jay in your world— you let him go. that is, only to find him at a rock concert 4 years later in the borough you called home, tearing up to the song that screamed your name like a mantra in his mind.
warnings : crying , angst
wc : 4.2k
a/n : i miss you and the friendship we had, writing this reminded me a lot of you
fic playlist ⤿ ** all too well— taylor swift, on the drive home— niki
epilogue for la la lost you ── read first part before this one !
you woke up.
you looked around—- unfamiliar?
the scent, it was familiar.
you turn to your side to see jay lying next to you. how did you get here? you had no clue.
did you pass out? you weren't drunk— did you lose conciousness? did you fall asleep? you can't remember anything, though the scent of jay's sheets, his room, his body.. it's the same. the same room you had once fell the most in love in. the jacket tossed over his chair, the display of colognes on the shelving, the sunglasses lined up neatly— the uniformity, he still owned it.
you didn't want to cause a ruckus. heck, you weren't even supposed to be here. it's not surprising he took you in, you hadn't even realized his aroma grounding you.
and for the first time in a long time, it felt like home.
trying as not to make noise, you pull the sheets off your body and quietly climb off the bed. you were wearing a completely different outfit jay had put on you. an oversized t-shirt and some boxer shorts. ironically, they were the exact ones you had years ago. "i guess he never tossed them out," you thought. you grabbed your jacket off the hanger and crept outside the door until—
"yn?" you freeze.
"yn? baby—" you could already hear the tears welling up in his eyes through the thickness of his voice.
you turn around and you see him sitting straight up in bed, arms reaching out for you with glistening eyes and messy hair.
"jay, i can't stay." you whisper.
"why not? please you've been gone for so long, please just talk to me like before."
"there's nothing to talk about."
"yn.. please don't say that. you have no idea how long i stayed up believing our relationship was just a game to you. that i meant nothing to you, that you never loved me." he croaks, voice cracking with each syllable.
"you have no idea how at peace i felt last night holding you and watching you sleep. i didn't sleep until the sun came up i- i thought you'd try to leave in the morning and i would never see you again."
"turns out you did try to leave…" his voice fades with disappointment.
"jay. you know i never meant any of that—" "then what did you mean, exactly? what was that? you— leaving halfway across the world and suddenly disappearing? do you have any idea how worried i was? please don't make this seem small, yn. i'm begging you, please stay a little longer."
you stood, limp, in his bedroom staring at him confessing his profound love to you even after years of not speaking. you can't lie, you still thought of him everyday.
on the verge of tears, you step closer to him and slowly sit infront of him on the bed.
delicately, you reach a hand out to caress his face where his tears were slowly beginning to form.
with a voice laced with softness and sincerity, you spoke.
"my handsome boy, don't cry. okay?" you face scrunched, hardly able to prevent the inevitable tears from falling aswell.
news flash, they did. you began tearing up uncontrollably.
"i'm so sorry i went ghost all those years ago— you were so far from me, and i didn't know what to do. i didn't know if we were falling apart because of distance or trust. i hated feeling that way, i thought this was the better choice so you'd be able to move on from me and this unforgiving relationship."
"my jongseong" you inched towards the backboard and leaned on it, signaling for him to come lay on you.
"after that night, i started thinking about you every time i fell asleep. fuck— you were my first thought every morning and my last every night. i'd look at our pictures until 3am, i'd stare at your old text messages and reread them over and over again until i felt your warmth again, i even went to go buy the brand of cologne you wore so i never lost your scent. but— it never worked, it was missing your boyfriend scent."
you thought it was selfish to come back and expect him to crawl back into your arms. little did you know, he had never left the spot you left him in.
"you're my everything, yn. i'll take me some time to forgive you— but i've never not loved you. please don't forget that. i don't want to be in this world if you're not by my side."
"i don't want any other life, baby. i want you."
he curled up into your side as you held onto him like a lifeline, sobbing together and laughing through the pain.
"i can't even tell you how many times i've dreamed of waking up to you kissing my face and holding me like this. please promise me you'll never go ghost in my life like that ever again."
"never again, jay. i'll be your yn for the rest of your life."
⌗ 𝒔𝒚𝒏𝒐𝒑𝒔𝒊𝒔 — in which y/n accidentally catches the attention of notorious playboy park sunghoon. unfortunately for him, shooting his shot proves nearly impossible when y/n absolutely despises players.
nai notes : …im sorry for not posting regularly but here’s a part 10! will most definitely post more now ~~ now that schools out of the way updates won’t be around slow. For those who are still actively reading thank you so much. It means a lot especially it’s my first ever smau😽😽 also y/n and sunghoon era cmg ?? jungwon’s lowk a villain LMAOO he knows y/n weaknesses and uses it against her….
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𝗕𝗟𝗨𝗥 (이희승 ) you don't know what terrifies you more, the fact that you've forgotten HEESEUNG'S face, or the fact that you're not so bothered by it.
[★] angst, healing, guilt, implied yearning, reader is moving on (yes!!!) wc: 1k
You're starting to think you miss Heeseung more than you remember him.
As your feet carried you to the pottery store, you tried sculpting his face, only it came out a disarray of facial features. Every dip, every curve seemed to resemble something less and less like Heeseung.
Now, you might've said remembering was mortifying, but you never wanted to forget how his arms were seemingly molded to fit your figure, how his lips melted onto yours so, so softly.
But as you walked back home, you couldn't figure out what scared you more.
How you forgot Heeseung, or how you didn't seem to mind forgetting him.
How not a single tear slipped across your skin.
How not a single voice mentally tore you apart inside out.
How could you?
How could you let yourself live?
Just how could you let yourself live without the pictures, the memories plaguing your very existence?
How could you not allow yourself to be a mere mosaic of ink and tears?
Swallowing your manually-implanted guilt- you look up to glance at the sky.
You gazed intently at how the clouds chewed upon the very wind that gave them the freedom to float however they pleased.
Maybe, just maybe, you don't mind when the line between 'is' and 'was' finally starts to blur.
