#ZæNDay

Wow, before we know it. Baby is already into 15 weeks. 

Time really really flies and today is already May. 

I am glad things between DD and I seems to become better as we learn to communicate with each other, baring our lives to each other, accepting each other and most importantly putting God’s principles and words into action, using them as anchors of our lives.

I can only pray that we will continue to grow closer to God in our every day lives and our child or children will be God fearing people that will glorify God in every of their lives. 

soon, I’ve to start our search for stroller, babycot, breast pumps etc...

well, nausea seems to be better now even without taking the pill at night. Just pray and hope it goes off asap! - crosses fingers

at times i’m also facing “pms” kinda symptoms and I get kinda angsty with BB. haha

Pray that the rest of the pregnancy be smooth as we choose our gynae. AMEN!

Soon, baby is going into the second trimester. 

Time is passing by so quickly, really do not know what to expect. DD keep insisting the baby is a girl but who knows right? 

Things have been abit rough between DD and I. Issues ranges from respect for each other, tonality, money sense, family, sense of freedom, relationships with others and even our walk with God.

To me, nothing matters more than our walk with God. When we are both zealous about our walk with God and our involvement in church, we will be on the same page most part of our lives. 

Just 1 week ago, i have officially became jobless after 6 years of working. Now is a time of rest and rejuvenation. At the same time, its a time for me to search for where God want me to be. For every close door, i thank God for them. For every open door, i thank God too. If they so belong to God’s way, they will surely stay open. 

Excited about the nanyang poly interview. God, it’s all in your hands.

It have been almost a week since DD turn 26th. 

I am not sure if its right to say this, but birthday and special occasions kind of like lost their meaning. Not in a bad way, but simply another day for us to spend time to celebrate together. 

I would say that I thank God that we aren't a couple that are so “event-strict”, where we only keep good meals and celebrations to birthdays. I pray that we will always stay loving till our hair turn grey and spend everyday celebrating each other’s presence beside us, and not only regret when the time of passing comes. 

Nonetheless, i thank God that 26 years ago, He created DD, that many years later I get to marry her. I confess that i didn't liked her as much then, and i have whole lots of complains about her. Not that they are all gone, but i guess i will always be learning to love her, more each day, every moment. Slowly but surely, this women will turn into a great woman of God, a great mother of many and a great wife that man will envy. 

Feeling glad and thankful that B allows me to eat whatever I want slash crave for. Yes, at times it may be unhealthy food but still he gives in to me. Thank you for doing that if not i’ll be feeling really miserable. 

I’m also thankful for B’s reservist because we get to spend more time together. haha! 

Feel so helpless every time DD have this horrible motion sickness. All the food she eats and the vomiting really sucks. Its not as if its disgusting. It’s horribly annoying. I dun like it that she is feeling that way. I hates it. 

I have been 2 years since we officially got together.

Time really passes by quickly and now we are married for 2 months and a baby is on the way.

I thank God for everything that have happened to us and all that He have given us. I can’t thank Him enough for DD and the baby otw. 

It was a blessing to receive the complementary staycation with DD, and i thought i was even better than Bali in a way. 

I love you DD.

Now i understand how is it like to miss someone that lie beside you every night and wakes up with you every morning.

You see, even though two person can be extremely close in proximity, but it does not mean that they are close emotionally and spiritually.

That two days of late nights make me feel like i am miles away from you, i guess i just couldn’t stand being away from you for too long.

Time really flies when you are busy.

People say 

when you hit 20. your time fast forward. 

When you start working, your time passes double the speed

But i say when you get married, your day blinks by. 

I am officially married for 50 days. 

I won't say that every moment is sweet and beautiful but sweet and beautiful it is. 

I love you, DD

Zac: Good Night Dd...

Jenny: Good Night...

Jenny: Don't snatch the blanket ah...

Zac: Huh?!

Jenny: Go where?!

Zac: Huh?!

Jenny: 😁

I think DD totally have no awareness about this, but she don’t realizes the extremes she goes when she is either good mood or foul mood.

She could be extremely open and joyful, communicate courteously and gentle.At this point, she will be carefree and act in a silly way but at least those are cute and adorable. Does stupid things once in a while but know to accept her mistakes.

However when she goes to the another extreme, she put up a black face, moody, grudging and negative about everything. Even if nothing is negative, she thinks about negative things and see everything negatively. Self-centered behaviour kicks in.  refusing to communicate properly. Negative silence is not good. 

Silence is not a bad things but silence that draws peace, that is a totally different thing and feeling. breeding trust and just enjoying the presence. 

Talk to me. deep from your heart. Consider your words with care.