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character study : victor + his addiction.

victor felt heavy , he felt like death. he didn’t think he could pull himself up from the ground if he wanted to. he wept , wheezed , his loneliness wrapped around him like a snake and began to squeeze , choking him. if he could only get to his cellphone , he thought he could call tommy back , or bother erwin; but he realized after a moments thought that he didn’t want to. if to lay there and die of a broken heart was his fate , he had no desire to fight it. consumed by his agony , he lay face down and let his tears stain the carpet , wept until his throat was raw , and tried to come to terms with this loneliness , settle on the fact that it would always be quiet , now , and there would only ever be him———victor and his grief , the hole in his heart he’d be ever hopeless to fill.