Change Is The Key!

Ok so been thinking about this a lot lately! So my personal opinion is your job is your job and if you work with the public you out a smile on your face and don’t talk about anything in an un professional manner. You treat everyone like they are the reason you get paid. It’s not that hard of a concept right? So many forget this, they think they get to have a fuckinf attitude or treat others like they are below them. I don’t give a fuck what your title is, where you came from, how much money you make or don’t make, if your work with people you keep that shit in put a smile on your face and do your damn job. I understand that retain jobs are hard, and they take their toll on you, yet did you not choose to work the job? Can you change your job? Yes so if you don’t know how to respect people who you don’t know you really need a realty check or a back hand lol. Everyone has bad days, everyone hates their jobs on certain days, when you work you leave your personal problems at home when you walk in and leave your work issues at the door when you leave.

Ok so one day when I was at my lowest of lows, my aunt and her friend showed up at my house like always she was ready to drink and party it up. So I wasn’t in the right state of mind to be around her, and tbh she’s annoying as fuck when she’s drunk off her ass. Me me me is what she’s always wanting. Lol god forbid you do something that you want. You take me here, you drive me around while I get fucked up, you sleep on the floor so I can sleep at my house. She’s a selfish breezy at times lol. Go get me coke so I can powder my nose. Ha ha So I’ve noticed a lot of changes in this ain’t, hell ive noticed a lot of changes in my entire family. They keep saying I ripped families apart. No they ripped their own families apart.

I have this thing where you can tell my entire mood by the music that I listen to! Sometimes when I have a car I can drive around and just blare music. This at times can be a bad idea lol! So there’s song by Miley Cyrus “We Can’t Stop!” Whenever it comes on I think of this floating trip. So the floating trip was fun than it ended. We ended up all being a wee bit to intoxicated and I ended up driving. I was between a bunch of cars and the cop pulled me over for speeding once the cop took everything he asked me to ge tour of the car for a sobriety test. Of course I told him I was drinking because whe it comes to the cops I don’t like a canary! Anyways the cop decided he wanted to look through the car and when he opened it beers fall on the ground and sprayed on him. He wasn’t happy about that ha ha. Than there’s Obsessed by Mariah Carey, it always reminds me of my aunt Monique. She’s a crazy bitch when she’s drinking lol. Backroads were are thing. We would sit k the car outside my Grandpapi’s house and listen to music. Music is so powerful one song can bring you back to an exact moment in your life. Lmfao like Scotty doesn’t doesn’t know. My senior year me and my best friend Alisha used to roll through town blaring it screaming at the top of our lungs. Oh the memories that music can bring back!

Ok so here’s a bit of crazy I’ve been hearing. So I’ve heard this rumor around my little town that I’m part of a plan to an arrange marriage. What the loving hell! I’m mean I guess it takes the adventure out of finding someone myself! Lmfao So here’s the story behind this, certain people in my families have been talking about this a lot lately! Than they try to say I’m already married. So I need to look into this! Like wtf I didn’t get a big extravegent wedding and a wild rough sex honey moon at an exotic place far far away! The ordacity of this! Lol Ok! Ok! So anyways the thought of this is outrageous, like hello we are not in the Olden days! Than again I could use someone to help with rent and future kids lol! Ha ha anyways just a random thought in my crazy life! You go glen coco!

My grandma and my Papa are two people who I’ve always looked up to. They were always there in my past, and they’ve always kept the Brooks side of my family together. However now I don’t want anything to do with them. I’ve been going through a lot these past few years and finding out that they are part of it has made this decision so much easier. I’ve decided to change my last name. I was born a Brooks and now I’m changing my last name to Aragon. I don’t want nothing to do with anyone on that side of the family and the reasoning behind this is an entire different subject to be discussed at a later date. The thought of them no longer being in my life is hard, I must admit! Yet there’s something that feels so right about it. I’ve been thinking this over so much lately and it’s something that has to be done in order for me to move on with my life. I’m on a mission to better myself and my life and that side of my family is doing nothing but holding me back. All they do is judge me and my past, they are constantly reminding me of my addiction when I’m in recovery changing my entire life around. They’ve done so much for me, however the pain has out weighed the memories that will no longer last forever. I’ve been tortured and tormitted by my own family while I was using. One night I even heard my uncle tell me to kill myself. I’ve even attempted to do this three times because they were constantly telling me to just do it. My cousins have been involved in this too and I never thought I would have ever been stabbed in the back by them. I thought while writing this I would get emotional and cry and to my surprise all I feel is relief! Just another day in my crazy life.

Getting it like a fat kid eating pizza ha ha