witch baby

i’m ashamed of how much i can relate to this

@whatsupmakelove

@clutchpigs

omg

Sometimes I think about my relationship when I was in high school with an older guy, and nobody ever told me what a relationship should be like. He was the first person I was with for a long time and I thought that intimacy was supposed to be this way. I want to talk about it because I still am finding my way through it. It fucked me up in such a real way. And I want younger girls to know that they’re not alone and that if it doesn’t feel good to be with somebody, then something is wrong and you don’t have to stay. You don’t ever have to stay. I remember he’d tell me I wasn’t very smart, but it was okay. He’d talk me down so he could have the power to build me back up, so I felt like he would be the reason that I was ever anything good. When he graduated he said he had eyes all over the school watching me. His friends would report back to him on who I was walking with in the hall between classes, who I was sitting with at lunch and in study hall. He told me who I could and couldn’t talk to. And when I’d talk to these people anyways, he’d turn the whole thing around and make it seem like I was the abusive one. He’d manipulate me and shrink me down. He hit me once and I remember how he coped with it. I cried and told him if he ever did that again I would leave. He laid on the floor and literally groaned over himself. He’d call me and I’d hear his friends in the background mocking me over it. I was a virgin when I met him and he told me if I didn’t sleep with him he’d cheat on me. He traumatized me in so many ways that I still don’t talk about because it makes me dizzy to, and he coped with these things by feeling sorry for himself and slinking away from me. No support, no love. All manipulation. Sex without eye contact because he thought it was creepy. I was in this for over a year, and two years before that he was pursuing me. When I was 14 he was 18, and he told me the first time he saw me he “watched my ass all the way down the hall.” Can we teach young girls that this is not love? That a person saying they love you after they fuck you selfishly, after they hit you, after they yell and throw things everywhere, after they tell you who you can’t see, after they abandon you when your health is fucked up because of them….can we teach girls that that is not love? That the word love does not always mean love? That sometimes it means control? Own? Nobody taught me that this was wrong when I was young. Not a single person. My parents wanted me to learn on my own and now they feel guilty for letting me learn. They didn’t know how bad it was. His mom would be outside of the bedroom that we never left and she never said anything. I remember every girl telling me how handsome he was, how lucky I was to have an older guy like him LOVE me. He’d threaten to break up with me every other week for an entire year. It was a constant. And now that it is all over, I still live with it and he does not. I assure you he does not believe that he was abusive. They never do. How could a person admit that to themselves and go on? He said he had anxiety from our relationship, but it is guilt. And I am not over it. I dream of running into him and asking him how he feels about what happened, to see if there is a spark of humanity or an admission. But there won’t be because he was able to move on and make it something else in his mind so he can let it go. I want health class to talk about this. I want sex ed to talk about abuse and rape and how love is supposed to be and how it isn’t. I need this to be talked about because I didn’t know any better. Girls need to know better. Somebody needs to help them save themselves from this.

this is scarier than any david lynch film

#video#THIS IS OSU!!!!#I SAW THIS ON THE OSU SNAPSTORY LMFAOOO I WAS CRYING#there was like actually several videos!!!#the teacher said he didnt have to take the quiz if he made it#so he threw it and made it#then the teacher was like#IF YOU MAKE IT YOU GET AN A ON THE NEXT QUIZ#so the guy DID IT AGAIN#and made it#AGAIN!!!#and then the teacher was like FINE. IF YOU MAKE IT ONE MORE TIME#EVERYONE IN THE CLASS GETS A 100 ON THE NEXT QUIZ#SO THIS DUDE#DOES IT AGAIN#AND HE MAKES IT#AGAIN#SO EVERYONE GOT 100% ON THEIR QUIZ

Chaotic good

come to the enterprise in 20 minutes if u want an ass kicking

s/o to ppl with intrusive thoughts that aren’t just like “eat sand” or “trample ur neighbor’s garden” but are really fucked up and immoral like u guys aren’t terrible just cuz the thought comes into ur mind doesnt mean u like it or want to do it i hope something good happens to u today

sending “I hope you get that job” vibes to the people out here tryna get jobs

reblogging for yall bc the shit worked for me lol

Karma will pop me if I don’t

This is so on point though 

@whatsupmakelove

omfg

get in there bruce

y'all are fuckin nasty