Bittersweet.

The fall of the usa empire

[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame

it’s crazy because you’ll grow up in a household where you had your sense of self and healthy boundaries systematically trained out of you so you have no idea how to say no or stand up for yourself as an adult and you end up in situations that make you compromise more and more of yourself and what you want for yourself until you’re a stranger to yourself because you live your life for others, bound by a sense of obligation to make sure they like you and they’re comfortable and they’re happy at the cost of your one precious life, and the moment you stand up for yourself and tell others that they’re allowed to do so? SELFISH.