saint/viscera

basic info

⟢ 18

⟢ saint or viscera

⟢ he/him

⟢ tmasc nb + aroacespec + unlabeled orientation

⟢ bpd, osdd1b, autihd + ptsd(?)

xtra:

no specific dni. just don't be a bigot + be at least 16

if i block you there's a big chance its bc of one of these things. furthermore, if you're an ageless blog and i follow you, pls feel free to block me or unfollow if ur -16!! i understand!

⟢ this'll probably a lifestyle + vent account , like a diary. it would also be really nice to make some friends who i can relate to

⟢ i am very pro recovery and on a constant on and off recovery journey — i still have untreated mental illnesses at the end of the day.

⟢ pronouns may fluctuate , i refer to myself as she on occasion.

⟢ I'm a uni student , so i might disappear.

⟢ blue lock, jjk, gachiakuta, genshin +

⟢ yume w many f/os

⟢ admin is a sua fictive. ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

do i drink more mouthwash. 🤔

im not doing great and i want to get sick. i know nobody will find me quickly if i gets too bad. (^_^)

that moment when people thought you were attractive ages 6-14 and now that you're in your late teens nobody wants you anymore uhh is this thing on hellooooo,, ,

i dont know why it upsets me, im wouldn't be good in any kind of intimate relationship,, but it would nice to know that people would want me.

jiraidon, as wonderful as it is, is a wee bit too unserious for what i want for my own jirai blogging. i do think everyone there is amazing though. i may just stick to lurking/nonsrs posting.

i made one of those mastodon accounts. i still plan on staying here because I'm not in danger of being termed, but it's there. my user is the same as it is here: clinicboy.

i finally am home😭😭😭😭i can steal wine😭😭😭😭😭

everytime i see screenshots or drama relating to people on this side of tumblr i just feel like,,

maybe i am too newgen.

i wonder if my recent feelings stem from not having an fp anymore. i feel like a larper when i use that term but theyre really isn't a better word for it. when my emotional state lies in the hands of someone else, life feels more interesting; i have to stay alive in order to continue basking in the light of their attention. now i just feel, normal? so much so i feel dull.

this can extend to hyperfixations as well. i don't constantly think about my interests to the point of detriment anymore, at least recently. a part of me can't help but wonder if this is my depression at work, or if I'm experiencing normalcy.

wtv it is, it sucks!!!i feel like whatever small things that made me human is being drained from me. am i not allowed to have these small things to myself?? must my joy be taken from me too????