100% Calum Hoe

Thank you petal and I do remember you :)

I’m bisexual so yeas. I love how I logged in to sort this account out and this is the first thing I see in my inbox 

I’m yet to delete this blog again, I’m not completely sure as to why. I never use it, everytime I log in and think about coming back. I just remember all the hurt I felt last year. People who spend their days on tumblr, need to see there is more to life than just this website. The friends you make on here aren’t always going to be there for you and i learnt that over the last year. I’m not saying all the people I become friends with left me when I needed someone to talk to. I’m just saying think about it before you dedicate your life to a website full of people you most likely have never and never will meet. I thought being on tumblr made me happy but you know what, it never did. The only happiness I got was when my follower count when up or when I saw my inbox had more than 5 messages. As I spent more time on here, the more the numbers meant more to be than anything. I felt I needed validation and the only way I got that was from people sending me asks or following me. The reblogs/likes started to mean more to me than the people who even followed me. I didn’t care if the person was a horrible person as long as the following kept going up, I was happy. I realised now that was not the reason I made a blog in the first place and the more followers I gained the more my blog got hate. What I’m trying to say is just think about tumblr and what does it really mean to you. If it’s the numbers and the amount of reblogs you get, then is it really a good idea to still be here. Numbers can’t make you happy, I wish I would’ve learnt that a lot sooner 

I will miss you too, thank you darling. You too x

I thought making this account would spark some love for 5sos again but sadly that didn’t happen, I still very much love Calum but I’ve moved on from 5sos. I might go to their tour next year if they have one manly to see Calum but I don’t feel the same as I used to a few months back. The time I wasn’t on Tumblr it made me realise this, I’m sorry I will be deleting the account but I’m keeping  the url as I may rekindle my love in a few months. I’m making an account for The 1975 as they have been my favourite band for a few years. I’m sorry to anyone who is upset or annoyed at me.