˗ˏˋ wolvin J127F ˎˊ˗

— NAMES / ALIASES / NICKNAMES : clawes, koda, J127F and One. you can also use my irl name but i'll only tell you it if i trust you enough

— PRONOUNS : she/any

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⤷ I'm okay w adults interacting, just use a sfw blog and don't dm me (allowed to send asks tho)

— alterhuman + selfshipper + furry

⤷ otherkin + fictionkin + therian + synpath + daemain + heartic

— DÆMON : @creature-remix

— i suck at grammar and sentence structure

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— this blog is more alterhuman centered, but i post whatever i want. i used to post more about my fandoms, but decided to make a whole new blog for that kind of stuff cough cough alterhumans that are also in the osc pls interact with me couhg plspslps

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⤷ "— vent⸝⸝" these posts will normally be under a cut. I'll try my best to add trigger warnings at the start, but I can forget sometimes.

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1. Basics 

1.1 What is this identity? 

You all know and love them and see a lot of them in the community. I am a grey wolf. I think you all know what they look and sound like. We have thick, furry pelts and howls that light up the night.  

1.2 Day-to-day 

1.2.1 How does this identity influence my behavior? 

Some Instincts of mine are gone, for they have slowly faded due to a multitude of reasons, mostly because of being born and raised in human society. Though I still have some over such as my territory marking, hunting coordination, howling, scavenging, and some other instincts. I have the urge to howl to communicate, I get defensive over my territory, and a lot more. I bark, bite, and (attempt to) howl. I am wild. 

1.2.2 What are some ways I express this identity? 

I used to do quadrobics when I first found out about my identity, but later became unable to do them because of a lack of motivation, my body becoming weaker, and having no space to practice them. The fact that I even must learn and practice how to use all four of my legs while the wolves in the wild are born with it makes me feel dysphoric. But sometimes I still subconsciously hop on all fours when going upstairs, rolling around in the grass, or just being in nature in general.  

I enjoy replacing some human terms with canine terms for myself, like saying “my paws” instead of “my hands”, or referring to my mouth, nose, and chin together as my snout or muzzle. They make me feel more comfortable and euphoric. Though this is only something I do online or when I'm with friends who know I'm a therian. 

There are a few pieces of gear for my wolf theriotype lying around my room, but not as many as the amount other people have. I have two tails: one that’s a keychain and one that isn't. The non-keychain tail is actually something I regret buying. For 5 euros, I bought it on Etsy when I discovered I was a wolf. I wasn’t aware of non-ethical tails at the time, and what the animals go through at those factories. Now I’m way more educated and more wary of the things I buy. My keychain tail is something I only wear indoors. I would wear it outside if I weren’t so scared to do so. I also have a collar and old leather gloves. I wear my collar because it makes me feel more canine, and my gloves because they make my paws feel stronger. Plus, they also protect me from hard things on the ground when I'm on all fours or just rolling in the grass. 

2. Alternormal experiences 

2.1 shifts 

I often have shifts relating to my wolf therianthropy, probably the ones I get the most out of all my kintypes. They’re mostly mental and phantom shifts. When I get mental shifts, it feels like my mind shifts to that of a wolf. My instincts, urges, and senses get stronger and harder to control. I either get more aggressive or calmer. My aggressive side is more likely to be triggered when I’m play-fighting or during any intense emotion. I’m more likely to growl and bite during this and be a lot more reckless. With my calmer shifts, they mostly come out when I’m resting or taking a stroll outside.  I often know when a mental shift is happening, but sometimes I only get aware of them after they have happened. That only happens with more intense metal shifts, though. 

Wolf phantom shifts are the ones I have the most. They accrue every two days or so. I mostly get ear, tail, teeth, and fur shifts. Even though these shifts are involuntary, I can also control and choose to have them. Most of the time, I don’t have a reason why I may choose to have a phantom shift, other than for funsies. There aren’t any emotions linked to my phantom shifts. They don’t calm me down or make me happier. 

2.2 dysphoria, euphoria, and homesickness 

2.2.1 dysphoria 

A normal wolf’s strength doesn't even compare to mine. I cannot hunt and run after my prey. Both this human body and ED are holding me back from things I deeply yearn for. I long to be strong and hunt down big prey, but that will never happen. My body is weak, weaker than people my age. This is my body, but not MY body. Every day feels so wrong, like my paws have been declawed, and my fur has been shaved off, even though it has always been like this. Sometimes it feels like mirrors, cameras, and even my own eyes are lying to me. That they are hiding what I actually look like from me 

I have grown up with an eating disorder that prevents me from eating a wide variety of foods. As a result, my body doesn't get enough nutrition and has less energy. My eating disorder has not only taken away my strength and energy, but also my craving for meat. Meat doesn't appeal to me. They are actually the foods that are most likely to make me feel anxious and uneasy. I find meat like beef and pork to be disgusting. Fish sticks, frikandel, and chicken nuggets or tenders are the only meat-based dishes I enjoy. Naturally, this causes me to feel quite dysphoric. I cannot eat a regular wolf diet. regardless of whether the meat is cooked or not. 

I try to keep my therianthropy to myself, a few friends, and the internet. Otherwise, I don’t want anybody else knowing I'm alterhuman. It’s not safe for me to be open about it. I cannot handle harsh words towards me, and it’s hard for me to fight and stand up for myself. Because of this, I repress my wolf behavior around others. But I have done this for too long and too much to the point that I have grown uncomfortable showing my behaviors, even losing some of them. I could be with someone who knows I'm a therian, and still only show my human side. 

It also hurts that I will always be seen as a human, and that I will always be in a human society. I was supposed to be born as a wolf, but instead, nature put a wolf in a human’s body. I was supposed to be born in a wolf pack, but instead, nature put me in a human family. 

2.2.2 euphoria 

Despite this constant feeling of wrongness that I experience almost every single day, there are still some things that help ease it. One thing that gives me euphoria, which is also the same for a lot of other alterhumans, is gear. I’ve already mentioned that my gloves make my paws feel stronger. Gloves in general make my paws feel like stronger wolf paws instead of weak human hands. I prefer the ones I have right now. 

Hanging around with other, larger animals also gives me a sense of euphoria. One of my friends, whom I kind of consider my cousin, has this dog. When I came over for the very first time, his dog seemed to like me. My cousin allowed me to play with him, and I had the time of my life. I had both a big mental and phantom shift. Playing and just being around other larger animals makes me feel like I’m one of them.  

Another thing that I really enjoy doing is biking! Specifically, on electric bikes, since normal ones make me tired faster. When I’m on my bike, shifts are more prone to happen, the good kinds. The wind that blows through my fur and riding my bike at speeds that my body physically can't go on two legs brings me so much joy. My favorite part of the day is biking home from school and feeling the wind on my face. 

2.2.3 homesickness 

I believe I belong in the forests; I view them as my home. But as I stated before, surviving would be impossible. I dream of running carelessly through the snow. Freedom is right there, one door away, but also so far away. There are so many things holding me back from just running away. The stress of being so far from home is eating me alive. I was meant to be in a forest with my pack, yet I’m here in human society. 

2.3 Noema 

I kind of just know that I’m a grey wolf. I have a rather gray pelt. My nose bridge and ears are browner, and my tail looks like a coyote’s, but with a grey spot and a rounder tip. I have a black nose and paw pads. I don’t have much to say about this, to be honest. It’s also that I feel a connection between those features. 

3. History 

I have been in and out of the therian community since 2023. I had times when I didn’t identify as an animal person. During one of those times, I was scrolling on TikTok until a video of a clinical lycanthrope came up. On their account, they shared their experiences as a lycanthrope. It seemed interesting, so I went searching for more. That’s when the wonders of therianthrophy, and how the community has changed since I left, got introduced to me again! After some time of questioning, maybe a month or so I don’t remember, I said “fuck it! I’m a wolf!”. 

I used to be ashamed of being a therian when I first realized I was one, which is why I had times when I refused to call myself one. I hated myself over it and had times when I wished I was normal. Growing up being different from everyone around me made me think there was something wrong with me. Realizing I was a therian only put a label on my struggles. I have come to terms with my therianthrophy now, but that self-loathing part still lingers within me. Somewhere deep inside me. 

This identity has definitely changed over time. I used to believe I was a physical therian for some time, but that's in the past. Now, I don’t bother with labels. I couldn’t care less if I’m a spiritual, psychological, or whatever therian I am. I’m me. 

I wrote about this on my Tumblr once, and it now has 151 likes by the time I’m writing this, which is kind of a lot to me. Here is what I said: 

“With each day passing, I start to care less on whether I'm a spiritual, psychological, or whatever, therian. I used to be kind of passionate about it, but it has gotten tiring. I don't care for "what kind" if therian I am anymore.  

"On what level do you identify as an animal?" "Do you identify fully or partially?" "Are you a psychological or spiritual therian?" I don't know and I don't care. All of this is too confusing for me, so I'm throwing it out the window. I'm making my own kind of therian. From now on, I am identifying as a "Koda therian". I'm a therianthrope that goes by the alias Koda that experiences therianthropy on a Koda level. I experience Koda shifts where I feel more like Koda or going by the alias of Koda. Koda therians don't identify partially or fully, but as a secret third thing. 

Okay, that Koda therian part was a joke, but hopefully you guys get where I'm coming from. I feel like I am just a therian or my own kind of therian. Not a psychological therian, not a spiritual therian, just a therian. I identify as an animal, that's it. I like calling myself a therianthrope, animal person, wolf person, wolfkin, wolf, or just an animal. I am an animal in my own way.”  -may 9 2026

I feel like no label fits me when it comes to therianthrophy. Going by none actually feels right. 

There are still some parts about myself that I’m questioning, like what subspecies of grey wolf I am. I have absolutely no idea what subspecies I am; I could be one, or I could be multiple. All of them fit me pretty well. 

I have always felt, and been, different from my peers. I have been feeling some form of animality since I was younger. My primary school used to have this gigantic garden that was almost as big as the school itself, and I spent all my time there. The school garden was like my home. The back had many trees, making it look like a forest. I had a small territory there and got really defensive and territorial when others even dared to come near it. Years have passed, but I still miss the school garden. 

Almost my whole life, this fascination with wolves and cats has stuck with me. In 6th grade, all my friends knew me for being obsessed with cats. Now, all my friends know me for being obsessed with wolves. 

4. Relationships with other people 

I’m pretty out about my identity online, especially on Tumblr. I like to lurk and interact with alterhuman communities online. I’m not afraid to express myself online because I’m behind a screen where I can’t get physically hurt. It’s easy to set up accounts that people I know offline won’t find. Hateful people aren’t fully gone, but I can just delete their comments. 

Being out as a wolf person offline is a different story, though. As I’ve said before, I prefer to keep my therianthrophy to myself. I’m only out to people I trust with this “little” secret. Because if this secret falls into the wrong hands, I could be in some serious trouble. Therianthropy isn’t as accepted as queerness is. When I got outed as a lesbian, it spread around like wildfire. I can only imagine what would happen when my school finds out I identify as an animal as well.  

I have interacted with various other caninekin during my time online as a therian. They have made me feel welcomed and accepted. Every time I come across another wolfkind online, I get reminded I’m not alone, that there are other people out there with the same struggles. 

I honestly feel like this towards the therian community in general. The fact that there are other animals like me out there is comforting. I mostly stick to the therian community on Tumblr. There is a lot less drama over there, and the people there are more accepting. 

5. Framework 

There are a few ways that I describe my therianthrophy. In general, I am an animal person, a wolf person to be exact. I’m a wolf, but also not?? A wolf with a human body, traits, and characteristics. I was meant to be born fully as a wolf, in a forest with a pack, but ended up here instead. Now I am experiencing the aftermath of this mistake. I’ve seen other therians say that they have a human side and animal side. I relate to that a little. I’m a mix of both the animal side and the human side, but during shifts my animal side tends to be stronger. 

My wolf therianthrophy is wilder and feral.  

As you could tell, I prefer to call myself a wolf, wolf therian(thrope), wolfkin, caninekin, wolf person, and animal person. Though I also don’t mind being called a wolf alterhuman, and sometimes even a were. 

6 Feelings and opinions 

6.1 overall 

It’s a little embarrassing admitting I’m a therianthrope. It’s not like I’m ashamed or anything, I’m actually proud of being a wolf person. I have been taught that thinking you’re an animal is either crazy or silly. And so, when I tell someone that I’m a therian, even if it’s someone I know will accept me, I get this feeling that they won‘t take me seriously. 

I guess I view my therianthrophy in both a negative and positive light. Negative because of all the struggles like dysphoria and wishing to be normal. Positive because even with all the downsides, I still love being a wolf. I love being wild and feral. 

6.2 Would I physically become this identity if I could? What if I couldn’t go back? 

I would only choose to physically become a wolf if I could also shapeshift into a human. As much as I wish to have the body of a wolf, I wouldn’t be able to do a lot of things I rely on or enjoy. As I’ve said before, I can’t eat a lot of foods. Almost all of the foods that I can currently eat, a wolf couldn’t. I would probably starve if I had the body of a wolf. All of the things I do daily require thumbs, and well, wolves don’t have those. How the hell will I type, write, and hold things? 

I still desire to have the body of a wolf. Though for my body, I think it should be half human, half wolf, or something. 

7 End