Mia Rant

I just broke into the 130's!!! 🥰. Ik it's not ideal, but yall have no idea for how long I've been stuck in the 140's

Tried to donate plasma to make money, but they said I didn't eat enough to qualify. Wtf do u mean? I had 300 calories for breakfast!!!! Is that not enough for you?!? I basically wasted all those calories for the day 🙃

Not stopping until my bellybutton goes from horizontal to vertical!!!!!

The fear and paranoia that swells up inside me when asking the fast food worker for diet soda and hoping that what I actually get 😟

How tf do u get rid of fasting head aches without downing a bottle of aspirin?!!??!?

When your antidepressants make u lose weight but the psychiatrist finds out you purge, so they take u off of them for the risk of seizures...... Still gonna use the ones I have left. I have my priorities 😌

So for the past 3 days I've been so off track. I've been in a heavy binge and purge cycle because my schedule has been off but hopefully tomorrow everything will go back to normal and I can restrict again.

My ultimate way to show I love someone is to stop abusing drugs and get rid of my ed. I couldn't care less about myself or my body, but if it means staying by your side a little bit longer, I would do anything. If only they cared about me the same way, if only I was worth keeping around.

Sometimes I wonder if all my throw up in my life time so far could fill up a pool, like it's definitely more than a bathtub but is is more than a pool???? I'm a little too curious 🤔

My throat is in so much pain from purging. I'm gonna try and stop because I want to smoke more often, in exchange I hope this will teach me more self restraint with food cuz I won't be able to purge.

Idk about laxatives man, im fighting for my life every day in the bathroom