rip oscar wilde you would’ve gone fucking insane over saltburn

People who don't hyperfixate will never know the slightly horrible, completely impossible-to-replicate feeling of being so intensely invested in something it possesses you, takes over your waking thoughts and rides some weird line between being excited, anxious, and stressed as hell while still being entirely some other beast.

my melancholia; the rubies that i gave up; and i lost you; i have this thing where i get older but just never wiser; all of the people i’ve ghosted stand there in the room; i should not be left to my own devices; i’m the problem, it’s me; did you hear my covert narcissism? i broke his heart ‘cause he was nice; lost in the labyrinth of my mind; no one wanted to play with me as a little kid so i’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since to make them love me; spineless in my tomb of silence; i drew curtains closed, drank my poison all alone; maybe it’s the past that’s talking, screaming from the crypt; that was the night i nearly lost you; every single thing i touch becomes sick with sadness; i’ve got a lot to live without; i bent the truth too far tonight; if i’d only played it safe i would’ve stayed on my knees; i miss who i used to be; never take advice from someone who’s falling apart; my fourth drink in my hand; you wouldn’t take my word for it if you knew who was talking; i pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care; no one sees when you lose when you’re playing solitaire; you should find another guiding light; i pictured you with other girls in love and threw up on the street; my sadness is contagious; i stopped receiving invitations; argumentative, antithetical dream girl; have they come to take me away? i wouldn’t marry me either; a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her.

If you don't believe that crystals can keep away negative people in your life you've obviously never thrown one hard enough, my personal favourite that i recommend is called brick

This is such an important point that also applies to Taylor imo. I love thinking about how a song ties into Taylor’s life (with the little knowledge we have) but the more time I spend here the more I appreciate Taylor’s songwriting and see it as a craft that goes far beyond a song about one single muse and one single event.

Yes, exactly @tales-of-kaylor !! Songwriting is such an art (and craft) that people forget to not take everything literally. I remember there’s also a quote from Phoebe Waller Bridge when she was asked about her series Fleabag if those events really happened (i can’t remember the exact question) but she said “it’s not autobiographical, but it’s personal” - which i really loved, and i think most writers are like that. Tweak certain details to fit a narrative. And like i always say, taylor is a master storyteller, when she writes, she thinks about it in a broader sense rather than this song alone. A genius through and through.