searching for the truth

I remember walking out of Sears with my first pair of heels in my backpack. And my heart was fucking racing. And I got home, and went straight to my room, locked the door, put ’em on... And, I just... felt like... I was collecting herbs, or making potions in order to up my manna, you know? Like, it started with that, and then it was clothes, and then it was makeup, and eventually hormones. Um, I just kind of kept leveling up.

I remember walking out of Sears with my first pair of heels in my backpack. And my heart was fucking racing. And I got home, and went straight to my room, locked the door, put ’em on... And, I just... felt like... I was collecting herbs, or making potions in order to up my manna, you know? Like, it started with that, and then it was clothes, and then it was makeup, and eventually hormones. Um, I just kind of kept leveling up.

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And there will be moments of relief, in her and in you. Moments that feel so normal, and calm, and rewarding that you’ll find yourself praying they last forever. Even though she’s only a child, and all the hard parts have yet to even come. And at the age of 16, she’ll overdose, spend four days in a coma, and you won’t know if she’ll live or die. But when she wakes up, she’ll be given the opportunity to get clean, to become a different person, a better person. Here’s the toughest part. No matter what you say, or do, or wish, the decision will be all hers. And all you can do is hope she gives herself the chance that she deserves.