‹ ︎ ✦ 𓏻 clara ’ ◟🍥⋅

interests ～ almost everything! but to name a few, I love homestuck, my little pony, dandy’s world, madoka magica, doki doki literature club, five nights at freddy’s, nekopara, and sooo much more!

diagnoses ～ when interacting with me, please keep in mind that i have diagnosed autism, adhd, and anxiety. i tend to be shy and nervous in social situations… i promise i do care, i just show it differently..!

fictionkin ～ i don’t talk about this much, but i am a fictionkin that identifies with gangle, madoka, haru urara, natsuki, cocoa, noelle holiday, feferi, jade, mizi, and fluttershy!! doubles can interact, but be aware im not always fond of them. :/

dni criteria ～ any hateful or insensitive behavior might warrant a block from me, i don’t like to argue or fight with others at all! nsfw content is okay to a degree, but i am triggered by mentions of csa because of personal reasons. for this reason, i ask darkshippers to please dni!

other socials ～ if you want to add me on anything else, just ask me via DMs! i love making new friends and would be more than happy to add you back :3

yumeshipping ～ im dr. sylveon yumeshipper (for those unaware , he is not just a regular pokemon , dw) and doubles who are ok with orher doubles can totally interact with me !! i project onto some characters for the sake of yumeshipping as well.

ok um i think thats everything… bye bye…!

hello! im clara, and i am the owner of clarakittycatty AND the previous account, clarachimera / clarakittycatt.

a lot of people and especially mutuals of that account have me blocked on this account, which is completely reasonable. i was hoping to explain my perspective on this situation, which will hopefully clear things up and let me put this all to rest.

mossy, who’s username i unfortunately cannot remember, was someone i considered a close friend! i adored spending time with them and genuinely looked up to them a LOT. it’s important to know that just previous to this, i had a dear friendship that underwent an unrelated, dramatic breakup, which made me annoyingly clingy and attached.

my behavior toward mossy was unsettling and borderline obsessive, which, in hindsight, is extremely embarrassing. mossy happens to be polyamorous, with multiple partners. one of these partners, at the time, was my age. 14 years old.

mossy is 17. regardless of personal opinions regarding this age gap, i immediately thought it was predatory, and having been exposed to an unhealthy relationship with my adult cousin (19 & 10, at the time) i was extremely worried for this person.

the way i expressed my fear towards achilles (the 14 year old partner) was unreasonable and hateful. instead of trying to peacefully protest the relationship, i chose to say cruel, hateful things about polyamorous relationships. these views don’t, and never have, aligned with my opinions. i do not hate polyamory. i believe that as long as everyone is of similar age and consenting, it is none of my business.

obviously, my hateful language offended mossy, their partner, and my other friends at the time. instead of backtracking, i dug my heels into the mud and kept fighting their claims with blatant disregard and disrespect. this was not a good decision on my end, because it only hurt people who i cared about.

by this point, numerous incidents like this had occurred, and mossy, as well as most of their friends, had finally decided to block me. i would continue to pester them on alternate accounts, unintentionally creating fear and anxiety in several people whom i cared deeply for.

certain individuals associated with mossy had continuously told me to take my own life, explaining numerous methods and techniques to do so. i was an already mentally unwell 14 year old girl, so these comments quickly got to me. had my irl friend not seen my posts and contacted my mother, i would have killed myself.

i would be dead.

thankfully, i am in therapy, and have an incredible support team of psychiatrists, friends, and family who are there for me <3

all i want is for everything surrounding this drama to finally end. i am 15. i know my age is no excuse, but i am still a kid. i am learning. i am doing my best.

i never meant to hurt anyone. and i am so, so sorry to everyone who did end up hurt by my actions. specially, i want to apologize to mossy, achilles, sunny, and kirin. you are very kind people who i recklessly hurt when i let my emotions and personal fears cloud my treatment of others

despite everything, i do still care about you.

this is not supposed to excuse my ignorance and behavior. just explain it.

i am very sorry to everyone i hurt. if you want more explanation, you can always dm me. i am more than willing to talk things out with you.

please stay safe. i love you all xx