hello world :3

need

yea i need

now why would you say that! with the knowledge you have! 🤩

im so touch deprived i need a hug so bad. idk if im just tired but its making me emotional. i want to hold and be held. i feel dumb but nobody has ever wanted to touch me in the way i want. i think having no good romantic experiences is not helping.

im easy as hell i think

im just going to vent here all at once and be done. im in so much pain. i didnt sleep but 2 full hours coming off of 24 hours not sleeping. my shoulder is in constant pain and rn its my whole arm thats numb. i have cried so much in the past 2 days that i cant anymore even though i want to. i normally dont cry over shit like this. im so tired. i think 2 people have actually looked me in the eye today and spoken to me not about work. ive had 5 different instances of people just flat out ignoring me when i talk. i will talk to them and make eye contact and theyll just stare at me. 5 different times. im thinking about how ive had 0 positive romantic experiences and how that’s literally all i want. im trying so so so hard not to totally lose it like in a serious way. idk how much longer i can do that for. i genuinely feel bad for even posting this even though NO ONE WILL SEE IT. i feel bad for nothing. i feel guilty for venting my issues to GENUINELY not a soul. i am not inconveniencing anyone at all and i still feel guilt about it. im trying so hard to have a good day and stay positive but i literally cant.

i dont feel good.

im still feeling like shit to be honest. gonna try to have a good day. i hope

i really really dont feel well. idk what to do. i want to talk abt ut but who am i like who put me on the planet. whatever.

everything has to be fine or itll be bad and i want to cry what the

yea im cooked