C J

You left and I know one things for sure, this place has never felt so empty before.

I owe myself so many apologies.

I gave you too many chances.

you not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself thank you

remember when you lied because it was easier to press yourself against my mouth if you tasted good and i couldn’t scrub the bad stuff out remember when i let you crawl down my throat for no other reason than because i felt hollow remember i met you and couldn’t stop smiling for days after remember how we played each other’s heartstrings so good that the music almost seemed to be worth dancing to   remember when we pretended that i am lovable and you are the loving remember that we held each other’s moans in sustained notes and you told me against my skin that you’d stitch us both forever if you had to beat us into eternity with your fists   remember how you left? remember how you left?

how to deal with your kid being trans

Because Other Swimwear Options Just Don’t Cut it For Some of Us.

This product won’t be perfect for everyone but for some it’s exactly what they are looking for– I know that we made the prototype because of my personal experience with Dysphoria and not being satisfied with the options I have for swimtops as a transmasc person. I don’t want to cover myself with a shirt all the time, I don’t want to swim in something that looks like a wetsuit, I don’t like the way my other binders look underneath tanktops in the summer, etc. I personally want to look down and not be triggered, and for me (and many others) top surgery isn’t attainable anytime soon, so something that “blends” more into my skin is a relief.

I hated him most for not having the courage to ruin us grandly. To break all the dishes and burn down the house. Instead he sunk quiet into the arms of a beautiful, weak little bird. Denied me my spilled blood, my great war, everything except his confession.