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As she promised, two steaming cups were already waiting for them on the kitchen table. Padmé, barely seated, immediately took one and sipped with relish the tea - as always, it was absolutely delicious, because Owen never supplied anything else. Taking leisurely sips, she elegantly supported the cup by the bottom, keeping her elbows off the table. Her back and shoulders were regal straightened, her chin slightly raised, even though she was sitting on a slightly rickety stool. Only three weeks had passed since the difficult, both physically and emotional, birth. And yet, there she was - sitting as if on a throne, despite the fact that she was dressed in modest robes and the surroundings were anything but royal. Such elegance must rubs into the bones over time, otherwise there's no explaining why… With an effort, Obi-Wan opened his hand to avoid crushing the already barely audible creaking cup and turned away.
Six months.
For six months, he diligently crammed his memory with any information that was even remotely relevant at that moment, just to maintain the control that kept him from plunging headlong into the abyss of her final minutes, her final words, her final touch… Deprived of his former activity, locked in a planet, and focused on the safety of far fewer beings than before, he could no longer dismiss the obsessive thoughts. But since the four of them had settled on Colstev, the image, as dear as it was painful, had never troubled him, even though the soil for its return, in the form of his broken soul, was quite fertile.
So why had this control suddenly cracked now? Why, now, do such trivial, utterly insignificant things irritates something that will never heal? Isn't the Force enough with his suffering, caused by nightmares about Anakin? Isn't his guilt and regret for doing what he, as a Jedi, should have done on Mustafar enough? Isn't his pain from the loss of so many brothers and sisters in Force, killed in the back by those they trusted so much, enough? Perhaps the Force so yearns for him to curse the day that brought their lives together, thus sealing their story's cruel end? He already does. He would prefer never to know her - not her voice, not her thoughts, not her body - if only she would continue to live, if only her soft, so gentle and sensitive to the suffering of others heart would continue to beat, if only… Obi-Wan closed his eyes and pressed his hand to his chin, unconsciously stroking his beard.
She wasn't sure about his beard. Even after they…
Clenching his jaw painfully, he placed his hand on the table, carefully pressing his fingers into the wood to prevent himself from doing anything else, and turned his head to Padmé, still peacefully sipping her tea.
“You wanted to talk about something?”
Better trying to talk about Anakin than thinking about… about her.
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