// the end has finally come! thank you so much for reading everything that iβve written. i feel a lot of this is word vomit. most of this series, i am sorry in advance!
* / five: acceptance It has taken a few months, but Charlie was finally starting to feel more like herself. She couldnβt say that she was the happiest person just yet, but she was finally starting to get her way there. She had finally started to go to work when she needed to. She no longer laid in bed for all hours of the day. She was venturing outside of the house more. What she had never wanted to do had been eventually what got her more to herself. She started to go to therapy. It wasnβt the thing that she had been wanting to be doing, but she knew that in order for her to get better than she needed to go. The pushing point was a moment that she had shared with Matt and still hadnβt gotten over everything that had happened that night. The children had gone to bed, as the both of them were in theirs when he finally brought up what everyone had been thinking for awhile. She had even bottled herself up from her own husband and after having broke down, crying with him as he held her, she knew that he deserved so much better than this. He didnβt deserve to have this broken wife that was incapable of talking to him about what she was going through. When he had finally confronted her about how she had been acting, what she was doing with her life. She broke down. Not in a small break down in a totally meltdown that resulted in her crying for almost two hours. It was once the tears started that they didnβt want to turn off. He held her telling her that everything was going to be alright. That he had been feeling the exact same way, but had to be strong fro the both of them because that was what marriage was. When one of them wasnβt strong, that the other would be the foundation for them. This had brought on a whole new set of tears, as Charlie just held her husband finally getting out everything. It was the break down that she needed, it pushed everything out of her system. All of the hurt, all of the tears, she knew that she would still cry over everything still, but this was a stepping stone that was really needed in order to get her life back in order. She didnβt like who she had become over the last couple of months. After that she eventually started to go to the therapist once a week. She loathed having to talk about her feelings and what she was going through. It had never been something that she was good at doing. It had easily played a big part in when Matt and Charlie had almost divorced the year prior. Being so incapable of talking through the feelings. But she was trying, she knew that she needed to talk about it in order for her to process and begin the healing process. It wasnβt easy as there were many times that she had wanted to quit going all together, but whenever she would look at her husband and children at the end of the day she knew that it was all going to be worth it. She had to have something to push her to the finish line and right now that was her remaining children. She wasnβt going to forget about everything that both Matt and her had gone through. But she couldnβt dwell on it like she had been, it was unhealthy and now that she was seeing more clearly even she could see that. It was finally time for the last appointment that she had scheduled and she knew that she was doing so much better. They had covered so much in the hour that they spent together, three days a week. Over the course of the time, she slowly started to go more often, finding that talking about things made her feel better. Not that she couldnβt talk to her husband about things, but sometimes it was nice to get an unbiased opinion in something. As she finally stepped outside, knowing that it was her last appointment, but not to upset about it because she knew that she could take on the world after everything she had been through.
