endless fractal loop

kinda worrying that my mental state is notably worse without my partner but i dont really have the time or energy to gaf right now

i kindof . Want to die

when ur f/o gets introjected in your system and then DOESNT EVEN GAF ABOUT YOU.....

IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY TO KILL MYSELF IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS BUT THATS FROWNED UPON APPARENTLY

im kind of just better than everyone and they gave me ocd to nerf me of my true potential

they should invent a killing yourself without dying

i ACTUALLY only wanna talk to my qpp right now but theyre mostly offline and im already scared rn

ok so the next time this happens im going to kill myself

actually im just scared all the time of everyone

kinda wanna give this blog to my qpp but then ill get scared to post

sometimes i wonder what theyd think if i killed myself but im not gonna bc i dont really feel like it. itd be funny tho

the only reason i havent cut yet is because my parents would for sure catch me

literally i can never feel fully safe around anyone other than like 2 specific people this is bullshit please fuck off

WOW IT FEELS REALLY GREAT TO BE BLATANTLY IGNORED WHEN I SAY SOMETHING THAT IM SCARED TO DEATH OF SAYING DUE TO THE CONDITION THAT I AM VENTING ABOUT . THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL SAFE GUYS

ohhh my god dude i jst registered rhis CAN THEY STOP COMPARING ME TO RADQUEERS

the way none of this wouldve happened if they let me block them lmao