Louise

Unfriendly reminder that having an anxiety disorder isn’t cute or quirky

Unfriendly reminder that chronic and severe depressive disorders aren’t something to be glorified or glamorized

Unfriendly reminder that eating disorders are legitimate problems for millions of people and have taken so many lives, and its not some cute fucking fad diet 

Unfriendly reminder that it isn’t okay to romanticize depression, anxiety and eating disorders but still continue to stigmatize and stereotype schizophrenia, bipolar, borderline personality disorder etc.

•when you stay awake at night, not even being able to cry and only stare at the ceiling and feel your heart throb with pain.

•when you start to hide how you’re actually feeling in fear of getting judge: and when coming out to someone about a problem, they just say, ‘you’ve been happier though,’.

•following the above, you start to show you’re feelings only for people to say, ‘it seems like you’re putting it as if you can’t let anyone know you’re okay,’ (a teacher actually told me that.)

•either sleeping too much, as you don’t have to feel anything, and you don’t have to think anymore. Or staying awake for days on end, as you are feeling too much and you’re thinking too much about everything and nothing.

•eating too much to get comfort

•starving yourself as you ‘deserve’ it

•restricting food to be able to have control of something in your life as everything else is turning to fucking shit.

•refusing to take meds as you feel as if you don’t need meds/should have meds to help you be stable and mentally well.

•abusing drugs in order to get a high or have a good time.

•stop taking care of yourself, as you have became too unmotivated to even do basic things.

•all of your hobbies, become boring, or you want to do them, but just can’t.

•sudden mood swings.

•get sensitive over something you know wasn’t aimed at you.

•looking at the mirror and just staring into it with tears steaming down your face as all you see is your flaws.

•start self harming(again).

•constantly think about suicide (like what ifs).

you can kill your current life without dying. you can kill this version of you and make a new one.

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And there it is.