Chronically Ill Mess

autism "i need my routine and the routine was already ignored yesterday" vs chronic pain/disability "good fucking luck dude. you got no bones today"

*displays textbook symptomatic behavior of my own disorder that I am well educated on* what’s my deal why am I like this

hey I'm sorry I stopped in the middle of that sentence my brain decided to flush its cache and I totally forgot what this conversation was

have you guys ever put in so much work in a friendship only for it to not even last? like from day one, you were the one initiating contact and making sure that y'all hang out! you were super considerate about their health and issues, but in the end, you realized that it didn't matter how much work you put in cause they never saw you as an important friend! you thought your friendship was special and was like no other, but they never cared. they never initiated any contact, and now you are so exhausted, and you officially give up, and they never reach out! it was just you! you were the only person in that friendship! it was never important to them! you still think about them but you know that they don't care cause they never did and it just HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH!!

I hope you get everything you wanted, and I hope I never hear a thing about it

You know the most heartbreaking thing about losing close friends, friends that you thought are gonna be forever, is when you have put so much time and effort snd love and just so much of yourself into that friendship just for it to go down the drain. It’s like life proves to you that see? Love is not enough. You can give it your best, your all, do everything for someone, walk all over yourself just to care for them but you can still lose that friendship. You can give things your all and still fail and that’s something you have to get over.