Pack, is this real?

very ridiculous comparison but we spend so much time online i think it's a good thing to analyze these phenomenons with some seriousness?!?! but this is mostly coming from personal frustration with being so afraid of making friends in fandom because everyone now is so rigid with shipping ethics. and i don't want to pretend i share their views but i don't want to make them uncomfortable.

like even the most sociable people you know irl will still have a dni proship in bio and talk about those kinds of shippers like they're the enemy of the fandom... i can agree with a lot of their feelings on some darkships. i don't actually enjoy a majority of darkships because i don't just ship anything for being problematic. the same way fujoshis don't enjoy every single gay ship ever. like this drives me insane. i have a soft heart i am not sinister. AND SO WHAT IF I AM SOMETIMES . STOP WITH THIS SUPERIORITY WE ARE BOTH FREAKS . CANT WE SEE PAST OUR DIFFERENCES. THERE ARE EVEN PSYCHOLOGICAL ARTICLES ABOUT THESE FETISHES AND HOW THEY MANIFEST AS PURELY FANTASY.

stop. making up. bullshit that if you ship it you think it's okay in real life and you have a mental illness and are a danger to society. there's so much to be covered with this dumb dumb argument. i just wish i could enjoy myself in fandoms without feeling ostracized by 80% of the fandom (depending). based on a single ship i like. cause it's harmless it really is. the same way people who make fanfiction or fanart of fictional serial killers aren't suddenly okay with murder because they like the character or ship them or draw them. liking an incestuous ship or a huge age gap etc etc doesn't make you okay with those things in real life.

i find it concerning that people continuously downplay murder in fiction as not as bad as other things. do they not realize that sounds insane? these things aren't meant to be compared they're all heinous or illegal what have you. idk. this just.. idk. i'm not shaking my fist at antis or anything i just wish we weren't so hostile between communities.

she's a fake southpark fan. especially cause she always says we're kyle and cartman and she KNOWS about the shipping culture in it so??? idk why she acted so shocked. the worst part though was when she tried to screen shot it to send to herself and then kept asking if she could tell other people like this was something sooo embarassing for me.

i didn't realize what was even happening until later . i was just being bullied... that's what that feeling was. i was kind of angry but also felt like i couldn't shake off the weird awkward smile from my face. and i tackled her down to take my phone from her and started fumbling for words to explain myself . "she's obviously not seven in that!!!" is NOT a great sentence to be shouting in an argument.

none of our other friends took notice or cared but i know one of the ones im closer with would've understood. she's very invested into fandom. I JUST HATE THIS MEMORY. IT MADE ME ALL FLUSHED AND HUMILATED. like this is basic nothing fanfiction. there's no controversy to this like this is all the sp fandom IS ABOUT.

So just thinking of what she would say to my occasional interest in brocon ships or any of the other taboo (but less fandom shamed) things i like to see . ugh that was really shitu of her to begin with . but the realization that this is generally how people would react to me and these things dawned on me and ruined my week.