safe haven

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙥𝙮? 𝙞 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙪𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙟𝙪𝙣 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙯𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙣𝙡𝙚

You know, in random times I just feel so empty to the point that I don’t want to think nor let anyone bug me. In short, I isolate myself from everyone. I don’t know, sometimes it’s just too much to handle. It’s not that I don’t want to spend time with them, I just want to be alone. That’s all. I hope people around me wouldn’t think that I’m such a bitch for pushing them away when they offer me help. I just feel that being alone will give me more peace. Sometimes it just feel so uncomfortable when sharing my thoughts and feelings. I don’t know. 

I’m sorry for being dramatic all of a sudden :’D

Anyways, Renjun and Chenle are my escape when I feel like shit. Because of Akdong Seoul, where they were former DJs, I felt peace whenever they gave advices that are so relatable with what I’m feeling. Because of people sending their concerns, which sometimes are the same with what I think and feel, I felt ease that I don’t have to force myself in telling everything to my friends or family. Do you also feel that? Or am I the only one? I hope I’m not the only one hahaha.

Also, this blog also became my escape, not gonna lie. I’m more confident in saying my thoughts by writing than speaking. I’m so grateful for having this platform because other than dumping my brain’s content here, I get to see things that made me laugh, coo, and interested. 

What a great timing.

I have a burdensome cough.

My throat is itchy as fuck I wanna throw it out :’D

This is why I kinda hate cold weathers, it makes me sick and sometimes bed ridden. The only good thing about it is that I don’t have to drench in sweat and feel like I’m living inside a microwave. It feels warm and cozy at night, having the experience to sleep like a hibernating animal. Wrapped in a thick blanket and the heater on, with some hot drink to complete the package. A very nice feeling, I may say.

But it doesn’t erase the fact that it made me sick, so I still hate this cold weather for about 20%? Yeah.

While scrolling here on Tumblr, I’ve been constantly seeing photos of Siamese cats. I’m fond of cats but I prefer those tabby ones BUT TODAY I think I’ll be adding Siamese cats in my “meow for life” list because they’re so ADORABLE. Those big doe eyes melts me I can’t even control my feelings I just can’t help but squeal whenever I see them (sorry for this weird expression of mine but this is how I react to things that I find cute). And those fur, Oh God. I love the color and the texture they look so soft and fluffy I wanna hug them.

With those mentioned, I remember Ten of NCT/WayV having a Siamese cat named Louis. That cat is a savage-slash-sassy one but very cute! He looks so damn done with his brothers or even his life but he’s so active and adorable a lot of times. Whenever I see them updating about Louis’ escapades, a huge smile creeps up my lips and a bonus laughter too. ANOTHER REASON TO OWN ONE. 

Maybe, sometime in the future when I finally have my own space, I’ll probably adopt one and also a tabby. For now, I’ll just give all my love to my shih tzu dog, Zyver. I hope that one day if I have the means to take care of another pet, they’ll get along because this little ball of sunshine can be a bit of a jealous type :]

So that’s all, thank you for coming to my ted talk.

Well, hello there!

I wasn’t planning to continue this page since my initial plan was to use this just for my school requirements but here I am. I’ve changed my mind and decided to make this a very personal blog page where I post my random thoughts--- like literally what anything comes into my mind will be here so apologies to those who’ll pass by my profile (if someone will) because I spit out nonsense when I feel like releasing what I feel and imagine at the moment. Also, I would like this to be the trace of what I will make and achieve in this year, 2022. Gonna view and take a look back once the year ends and see what I’ve improved so far (if there is yikes). Crossing my fingers that as much as I am active here will also reflect to my activities this year. I don’t wanna get stuck at home again for a year T_____T