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Ah, back in the days when I would post such photos to tumblr thinking my worth was determined by how many notes I got on a picture 😅 thank you very much! I'm glad you're working hard at yourself. Keep it up, don't let all this struggle be for nothing.

Oh bless you! I'm not necessarily *back*, mostly just on here temporarily for nostalgia, memories, to save some of my old posts and to prove to myself how far I've grown from the person I was.

Hey there! I'm getting by - also struggling.

I've been getting numerous messages asking if I'm dead due to my lack of activity on here for a long time and I finally want to address it.

No, I'm not dead, infact I'm more alive than I've ever been.

The truth is I had to take a step back from Tumblr as my suicidal traits were being idolised by thousands of people which was enabling me to maintain the darkness I was living in. I was idolized for being mentally ill and wanting to end my life. I was idolized for being sad, and my intrusive thoughts and suicide attempts were all celebrated with followers and reblogs and likes. I would lose 50+ followers if I posted anything regarding my recovery or anything positive. I used to think I had thousands of supporters but I actually had thousands of enablers. This site is awesome, but this site is also fucking disgusting.

I sought help. I had years of therapy. I've rewired my brain with aid from CBT. I fled a toxic environment and started afresh. Honestly, I'm better than I've ever been.

Thank you for your concerns; I am doing absolutely fabulous.

Fuck everyone who got a wetty over my pain and got pissed that I'm not sad enough for their aesthetic anymore.