chimaera

#metoo This was the only time I felt comfortable in what I was so excited to wear for my return to EDC Las Vegas this past year. Little did I know, this outfit would be the start of a shitload of tension and stress that interrupted my entire weekend. Long story short, friend of a friend made aggressive physical advances towards me while we all stayed in an air bnb and attended the festival together- lots of group activities. He would watch until my boyfriend left me alone and physically corner me and touch me, or pick me up and touch my almost bare breasts (as a small female, I felt fucking helpless) and I had to request that my boyfriend not leave me alone when he was around. I needed the supervision of any male friend to keep me safe. At first, people didn't believe me when I asked to not be left alone with him but when they watched from a distance when he thought he was in the clear they saw what happened. Going into that weekend, I felt sexy, fun, empowered- and because someone decided to impose their will on me, it's turned into questioning, "did I do this to myself?" "what if I had just worn something else?" "This is ultimately my fault why I had a bad time." I experience anger that as a 24 year old woman, my boundaries are only respected when I'm under a man's supervision. This is just one example. This was apparently a guy a few of my good friends knew very well. It's fucking everywhere. And this is just one of my many stories. Things I've locked so far away in my memory, I've almost managed to forget they happened. Reading stories in this tag shook some cobwebs loose for sure, so I figured it was a good time to resurface on here. This is just one of millions of stories of boundaries crossed, times "no" meant nothing, and and it saddens me. It shouldn't have to come to victims raising their hands for people to realize there's a fucking problem with how we treat women. Sorry, long post- it was a very long couple of days of looking over my shoulder in constant worry I was being snuck up on and what would happen next. Oh! And I forgot to mention, his girlfriend was with us on the trip! Cringe. Sorry for the long post, felt the details were necessary. (at Electric Daisy Carnival (EDC))

It's amazing how fast life can change. I'm in awe of the power of a positive company with incredible people and it's capacity to do good in not only my little corner of the universe, by also for the world. I haven't been this happy overall in a long fucking time. (at San Diego, California)

Holy shit. Whirlwind month. Early riser now, still pouring stuff in cups. My entire life is changing and I'm really enjoying the shift. Wild shit. Hey instapeeps, what was the last new thing you tried? (at North Park, San Diego)

Same selfie, slightly different hair color. 🤷‍♀️ anyone else feel like they're running in place? (at San Diego, California)

This time last year. I miss that bike. . . . . . . . . #girlswithplugs #bluehair #limecrime #pride2016 #sandiego #throwback #throwbacktuesday #arcticfoxhaircolor #arcticfoxpurplerain #arcticfoxposeidon (at Hillcrest, San Diego)

Life is weird, anxiety is a bitch. Here's a picture of my tits. . . . . . . . . . #cthulhu #silverhair #greyhair #girlswithink #iforgethowtoselfie #manicmonday #anxiety (at San Diego, California)

Rapidly cycling between feeling myself, feeling everything too much, and feeling nothing at all. At this weird point where I'm not sure what to do. Inspired af, but overwhelmed, apathetic, and grounded in reality so the motivation is reasoned away. 🌑The definition of insanity is trying the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. I think I'm losing it, but I think it's time to let go of certain things. #girlswithink #blondesdonthavemorefun #cthulhu #girlswithplugs #nobodyexistsonpurpose #nobodybelongsanywhere #everybodysgoingtodie #comewatchtv (at San Diego, California)

🦁🌼🌟✨ #girlswithtattoos #cthulhu #blondesdonthavemorefun #idfk (at San Diego, California)

Everything's been a fucking joke lately. Just waiting on the punchline 🙃 (at Hillcrest, San Diego)

Life has been really fucking strange lately. I'm just happy I have an ocean close by. (at Ocean Beach, San Diego)

Million and one years ago, from 2016 in the ramen shop. #tbt #bartender #blondehair #blondesdontreallyhavemorefun #throwbackthursdays (at North Park, San Diego)

@hexapoda is an absolute dream come true 😍🔥#wcw #suicidegirls #girlswithink

Caturday in my natural habitat ✨ #caturdayeveryday (at San Diego, California)