til the end of forever â
pairing: hwang hyunjin x afab reader
warnings: nsfw, soft and fluffy sex, no plot whatsoever, just very soft hyunjin, both are extremely whipped lol, bulge kink, cockwarming, crying during sex (but in a good way), creampie, insecurities
wc: 3.1 k
a/n: okay so this is basically my love letter for hj for his bday bc đĽş, also the past toxic relationship i mentioned is made-up but iâm basically referring to his bullying scandal and how i imagine him being heartbroken at the time :(
this is my first smut so please leave feedback- hearts or comments! they mean a lot to me :3
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A fuzzy blanket draped across both your legs while you watched a cheesy rom-com with Hyunjinâs arms bound tightly around your waist.
âJust go for it already, she clearly likes you backâŚâ Hyunjin whined at the main lead, fully immersed in the drama, though not without pressing a kiss to the top of your head as a silent thanks for being there with him.
You hummed, an attempt to acknowledge your boyfriend. But try as you might, you couldnât focus on anything other than his every little action against you.
Like how he would absentmindedly tighten his fingers around your middle whenever the drama intensified, or how his thighs would occasionally brush against yours when he gets excited, or just how his hearty laugh would bubble from his throat every now and then.
Hell, you didnât even pay attention to the plot in the first place and the steamy make out session the main leads are now in, arenât exactly helping. God you had to mentally facepalm yourself at how horny you are right now, but who can blame you? Now that you thought about it you realized you havenât spent a proper time with Hyunjin for at least a month now.
Today was a hard earned rest day for Hyunjin so it was supposed to be just an innocent, sitting-on-the-couch-doing-nothing date, which you totally appreciate and love, but itâs so hard to sit still when your core is literally throbbing.
Today was a hard earned rest day for Hyunjin so it was supposed to be just an innocent, sitting-on-the-couch-doing-nothing date, which you totally appreciate and love, but itâs so hard to sit still when your core is literally throbbing.
âBaby, you okay? Your cheeks are all red,â a concerned Hyunjin suddenly asked, snapping you out of your daze.
Fuck.
âWhat? Y-yeah Iâm okay,â you squeaked, feeling the heat of your cheeks with the back of your hand.
âYouâre a bad liar, princessâŚâ Hyunjin smiled mischievously as he made intense eye contact with you, knowing full well how much that pet name affects you. You, on the other hand, whimpered under his penetrating gaze, squirming at his pet name.
âFine, Iâm horny,â you admitted shyly. âIâve been horny ever since you came home.â
Hyunjin smirked âWell, why didnât you do something about it, hm?â he teased, but he knows better at how much more he had been thinking about you.
You shrugged. âBut today is your well deserved off day! I figured you wouldnât want to do any cardio todayâŚâ you trailed off.
Hyuniin smiled and kissed your temple sweetly.
âAww, but fingering you isnât cardio⌠is it?â your boyfriend whispered, fingers bunching up his hoodie youâre wearing.
Your breath hitched but grabbed his wrist from reaching further. Instead, you turned around and straddled a confused Hyunjin.
âWant you inside me,â you mumbled, face burning, hiding your face into Hyunjinâs chest.
He smiled and gently lifted your chin to look at him. âAre you sure?â he asked tenderly.
His heart swelled at the fact that you trust him so much to let him inside you, even if it wasnât the first time you had sex with him. But he also knew that you still felt the sting during penetrative sex, and he never wanted you to feel uncomfortable.
You nodded fiercely. Oh how you wanted him so much, how you wanted Hyunjin so bad.
âWant you please, JinnieâŚ.â you pleaded, already rocking on his thigh because the fire in your core is getting unbearably hot.
Hyunjin wasted no time in melding his tongue with yours, the movie in the background still playing. His hand finds your hips under the hoodie, gripping to them tightly.
His other hand came up to run across your nipples, pulling a squeak from you, rolling and pinching them between his nimble fingers, until they harden under attention.
Little did you know, Hyunjin was so desperate for you too, wanting to fuck you the minute he came home, but figured he might appear too horny and scare you off.
So he just planned for a lazy date. If only he knew how you feltâŚ
Now Hyunjin kissed across your jaw, moving down to pepper kisses all over your neck.
âMissed.â A kiss. âYou.â Another kiss. âSo muchâŚâ He licked and sucked a hickey on the side of your neck, thumb rubbing circles on your damp panties.
You whined and signaled your boyfriend to go faster, having Hyunjin laugh and take off your panties.
âGonna stretch you out, okay?â he pecked your lips sweetly, before slipping two fingers into you, the pad of his fingers curling at the sweet spot that makes your legs turn to jelly. You moaned at the feeling and fisted at Hyunjinâs shirt.
âYou like that baby?â Hyunjin teased, thumb pressing your bundle of nerves.
You nodded with pleading eyes. âMâŚMore,â you whined, barely audible.
Hyunjin scissored his fingers and added one more, thrusting a few times before you came around him, coating his fingers thickly, his name rolling off sweetly on your tongue.
He continued to rub your bud the way you like it, until you whimpered, thighs quivering from overstimulation.
âPoor baby is so sensitive, hm?â he cooed at your bliss covered face. You nodded shyly.
âClean,â he said simply, holding his juice covered fingers in front of your mouth.
And clean you did, deep throating his fingers to the knuckle while making eye contact. It mustâve taken him off guard because Hyunjinâs eyes darkened with lust.
âFuck, youâre so hot princess,â he muttered, coming up to attach your lips.
You broke the kiss and reached down to tug at his shirt, to which he teared off in 3 seconds. You connected your lips again, wriggling his sweatpants down and tracing the outline of his bulge on his boxers.
Then you palmed him with more pressure, making Hyunjin moan and throw his head back. In no time, you discarded his boxers as well and his dick sprung free from the contrains.
His cock stand proud and flushing at the tip. You instinctively licked your lips at his girth, your boyfriend looking at you hotly.
You traced your finger over his abs slowly, enjoying how Hyunjin fluttered his eyes and gulped when you got close to his cock.
Wrapping your hands around his dick, you noticed how you canât even hold all of him with your fingers stretched out.
You gave him a few pumps to spread his pre-cum, thumb swiping across his slit when you came up, the way he likes it. Hyunjin groaned at the feeling, grabbing your thighs tightly.
You slowly lowered yourself on his dick, Hyunjinâs hand wrapped around your waist for support.
You had only got the tip in before your desperation got the best of you and you sat the whole way down in one quick move.
Hyunjinâs eyes widened comically and quickly but gently pulled you off of him.
You were luckily he pulled you out fast because that felt like you shoved an entire sword up your cunt.
The burn in your walls made you squeak in pain and your eyes water, so you closed them and just focused on a slightly panicked Hyunjin stroking your hair and asking if youâre okay.
âBaby, youâre gonna hurt yourself if you do thatâŚâ Hyunjin mumbled, worried, caressing your inner thigh. âItâs only the second time and I havenât stretched you in a long timeâŚâ He kissed your forehead.
You opened your eyes to meet his, that are full of hurt, hurt that he made you feel painful.
âIâm fine, itâs not like I have a label of âCaution: Fragile, Handle with Careâ, â you joked and air quoted, lightening the mood.
Hyunjin huffed, but you can see him visibly relax.
âNot funny. I thought I seriously hurt you or something.â
âOh but baby, you can never hurt me,â you said sincerely, kissing his nose. Your heart swelled at his concern for you.
âI just crave you so much, Jinnie,â you pouted.
âAnd Iâm right here, baby. Iâm not going anywhere, so you can take your time, hm?â your boyfriend reassures you, eyes full of warmth and love for you, causing butterflies in your stomach.
âWanna try again?â he asked softly.
You nodded and quickly got into position, hovering your hips above him. This time, Hyunjinâs grip around your waist is stronger.
You looped your arms around his shoulders and slowly lowered your hips, hissing at the way he stretched your cunt.
Bit by bit, with his encouragement, he finally bottomed out, fingers digging into your ass at the warmth of your core, his bulge evident on your stomach.
Biting his lip, he grabbed your hand and traced the bulge of his dick on your soft skin.
âFuck, youâre driving me crazy baby,â he whispered lowly, breath uneven because itâs been a long time since heâs felt this, since heâs felt you. You shivered at the thought of him being so deep inside you.
âCan we stay like this for a while Jinnie?â you pleaded. Itâs the first time in forever since youâve felt so full of your boyfriend, filled to the brim with Hyunjin.
He pecked your lips and nodded, hands running up and down your thigh. He mustâve thought your thighs felt cold, because he wordlessly grabbed a blanket and wrapped it gently over your exposed thighs.
Itâs these little things that make you fall in love with him even more. This, and how he is looking at you with so much adoration in his hazel eyes, makes your eyes teary.
The thing is that Hyunjin falls deeply and blindly in love. He has a pure heart that he wears on his sleeve. He shows his emotions genuinely when heâs happy, sad, angry, jealous.
He let his heart lead him instead of his head most of the time, and it is honestly a wonderful character in Hyunjin that makes you wonder if this sweet boy was fiction, written by imagination.
But it is also this trait of him that makes your throat tighten when you thought of what he went though, or more specifically, what he went through in his past toxic relationship.
Because Hyunjin is a such a sweet and simple soul, he can be so vulnerable in front of love. Piece by piece, he gave himself to his lover, only for her to fumble it and drop it.
You knew because you were there, at the bar, wishing that if you hugged him tight enough, you can fit all of his pieces together again.
And it took him a hard time, months of weeping and grieving, before his heart is barely mended by you and his friends, before he turned to you, shyly asking if he could buy you a drink.
It is easy to shatter Hyunjin in a million pieces and you canât bear to see it ever happening again. And you swear you wouldnât let it happen again.
He once admitted that he didnât see his girlfriend was mistreating him until you talked him out of it, and it makes your heart sink when you think of him being treated everything less than he deserves.
He deserves the world, and everything good.
And you. You hope you deserve him.
Youâre reminded once again how terribly out of league Hyunjin is, and it makes you feel failing as his girlfriend, yet you never want to let him go.
Your arms tightened around Hyunjinâs neck, face buried in his chest as you sobbed, pulling him impossibly closer to you.
Hyunjin eyes goes wide. âIs it too much, baby?â he asked, concerned.
You leaned back and shook your head. Hyunjin thumbed away a tear running down your cheek as you spoke,
âItâs just⌠I just love you so much it fucking hurts, and Iâm so sorry you had to deal with being mistreated, or just any hate people would throw at you.â
âAnd sometimes Iâd feel⌠helpless, like Iâm not enough when I canât defend you, when your name is chewed up and spat online, it just makes me want to cry because I canât do anythingâŚâ you rambled. The tears are slipping nonstop down your face now, and your gaze dropped to his stomach.
Hyunjin sighed softly.
âBaby look at me.â he says, his eyes glassy when you did.
âIâm sorry if you ever felt like you needed to do anything. All I ever wanted from you, is to take care of yourself when Iâm not there. And, to be right here⌠for me to love,â he spoke gently.
And when you looked into his eyes, you can see stars in them, shining brightly, only for you.
âBecause whenever I feel like Iâm alone against the world, painted in blue and grey, and I feel like shit,â he paused, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.
âAs long as youâre here, Iâll be okay,â he continued, voice cracking at his love for you.
âBecause your love paints me all the colours in a rainbow, or, you know, you are the rainbow,â You both share a small laugh at his metaphor. âAnyway- you get it.â
âAnd thatâs the only thing that matters to me,â he finally whispered and kissed the back of your hand that was on his shoulder. âSo please donât ever say that youâre not enough for me⌠Because you are my whole world.â
Heart hammering, you canât even speak. Not when Hyunjin says he loves you in the most poetic and romantic way possible. Heâs still looking at you so very fondly when you crashed your lips together, moaning, fingers digging into more, more Hyunjin.
He does the same, hands running everywhere, twitching inside you. Youâre surrounded by Hyunjin, and only Hyunjin, and you wanted nothing more.
Soon you pulled away reluctantly, gasping for breath, a string of saliva still connecting the both of you.
He looked like a mess, tears and saliva glistening on his face, lips red and swollen, hair sticking up. But you smiled to yourself because if anything, he was your mess.
Both teary eyed and flustered but smiling ear to ear, you leaned up to peck his lips again.
âI canât believe you just said all that to me. That makes my âI love youâ sound so lame and boring,â you laughed.
âYeah, it kind of does,â Hyunjin teased, to which you scrunched your nose. âBut Iâll never get bored of you saying it to me.â
You smiled back.
âAnyway, wanna do something about this?â you gestured at the bulge on your stomach.
Hyunjin looked down and dropped his mouth open in realization. âI canât believe we forgot to fuck,â he giggled.
âYeah but⌠this is really nice too. You know, cockwarming,â you blushed.
Hyunjin smirked. âYep, but I think Iâll literally burst if I donât fuck you, like right now,â he said, a bit strained, cock twitching restlessly inside you.
âThen, Iâm all yours,â you replied cheekily.
And Hyunjin wasted no time in pushing your back against the couch, hovering above you, before his lips came crashing to yours. With one hand supporting his weight, his other grabbed your leg and wrapped it around his hips.
His thrusts were slow and deep, not hurried to reach his high, but more on making you feel every drag of his cock against your walls.
Your heart fluttered when you realized that he was making love to you, unlike the needy, rushed sex you have always done with your ex. Hyunjinâs velvety moans urged you to let go of yourself, letting him control, letting him take care of you.
At one particularly hard thrust, he hit a spot inside you that made your back arch and see stars.
âRight there?â Hyunjin asks.
âF-Fuck yes, please,â you mewled at the new sensation.
He angled your leg so he could hit that spot again, having you forget everything except him.
âSuch a good girl, taking me so well princess,â he mumbled next to your ear, scattering kisses all over your neck.
âJ-Jinnie, fuck, so closeâŚ!â you whimpered, overwhelmed by being surrounded by Hyunjin, by Hyunjinâs love.
Hearing that, he brought his hand down and rubbed gentle circles on your clit.
âLet go, baby, come for me,â he whispered sweetly. And you did, waves upon waves of ecstasy washing over you as he stilled inside. Your back is arched as you clenched uncontrollably on him.
His strokes are sloppy when he thrusts into you again. Dazed, you stroke his hair tenderly.
âIâll always love you, Hwang Hyunjin. Till the end of forever,â you smiled at him, a dumb lovestruck expression on your face. Thatâs all it takes for him to bury his face into your chest as he moans, loud, as he comes in stutters inside you.
He pulls out a bit, the drag of come spilling, hopefully not on the couch, before he fucks back into you.
âFuck I love you so much baby, you donât even know,â he pants.
You stayed like this for a while, catching your breaths and basking in each otherâs musky scent. Then his weight began to crush you a little too much so he had to pull out and settle for a more comfortable position for the both of you.
He quickly grabbed a towel and wiped off the sweat and come off of you. You winced as he accidentally brushes over your swollen and sensitive clit.
He smiled at you and mouthed âsorryâ, but you were too drunk in his love to care, your limbs heavy but feeling warm and fuzzy inside with Hyunjin taking care of you.
He put on his boxers and shirt, then grabbed a new pair of panties and put them on you.
Finally, he sat on the couch, the end credits of the movie rolling, as he arranged you to sit on his lap, hands securely wrapped around your waist when you snuggled into his chest.
Comfortable silence filled the room while Hyunjin mindlessly twirled your hair around. You can literally feel his satisfaction radiating off of him.
Hyunjin suddenly grinned. âNo, but like what I said to you just now is probably the most smooth Iâve ever been,â he commented. âYou know, I should probably jot it down and use it again later.â
âI hope you mean youâre using it to me again, or write it in a song, later,â you replied, drowsy.
âNope, gonna say that to âLix, as a pick up line,â Hyunjin said cheekily.
You huffed and playfully pinched his nipple over his shirt, causing him to yelp and laugh, eyes crinkling to those beautiful crescent moons.
âNo but seriously, you know I love you right?â
You peered up at him from his chest and smiled at his sincerity, kissing his soft lips.
âOf course I do. Because I love you too. And Iâll prove it to you, Jinnie. Every day.â
Drifting off to sleep, you thought you felt him press a kiss to your head and mumble,
âMe too, baby, til the end of forever.â
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