ciao, *.

i was proud of this at a time in my life. i don't think it was anywhere NEAR grand enough to put on ig haha so here will do! good job, past me.

i think in the future i want to marry someone who can help me grow a family business just so my kids have the feeling of security in the future in case they want to fall back to it, and that i’m more or less sure their futures will be ok whatever they choose

i am once again finding myself in a thought space where i can’t find peace in anyone — not in my friends, not in my family, and not in myself. and it’s nobody’s fault, but i don’t know what to do except to stop everything.

Another dream about him. This was just here at home. The was just a lot of talking and a lot of laughing. I remember it transitioning from aot to having him around at home.

I had a dream about him posting about me on his finsta. It was an old selfie of him and me. His caption had something about weird hair and the rest of the photos were just of him with his hair transformations. Part of the caption read, "life used to be easier." It was posted to Facebook too, so our photo got a lot of reactions. I don't remember the rest of my dream. I'm sorry I didn't say hello on discord.

I have to be honest, no? It's annoying. It's annoying how my sister grew up knowing Click gets to him and now that she's watching it for the first time, my mom's just making fun of my dad crying. This obviously has no effect on her whatsoever. It's annoying how my mom is casually brushing it off, and it's annoying how my dad thinks the crying will make this better. I can't say he can't control this, but it's annoying how he can't cry at ???? Movies with subtly gay people. Documentaries with less advantaged people. Ah, i need to stop myself. I can't control what he feels. What any of them feel. And it's fucking annoying.

Everything else I talked about in my head before my shower is now lost in the archives of the universe. I hope I'll get to access them again someday when my soul is past this realm, but I don't worry about it now. All you need to know is that I'll always love you. It's the one thing that's been constant all this time and the one thing that will remain so for as long as we're remembered.

Osric chau - kind of off theme but i feel i like ive known him for all my life u know haha, cute, would be my best friend, looks like could secretly be the toughest guy in the room

Also still need to put my December Daylio entries on here! I don't think I'll be able to continue it for now.