From My Plan To His

I know I have not written in forever, but I wanted to open up the dialogue as to how COVID19 is impacting our kids. I write this from the perspective of a family that does not have the news on if the kids are awake and our children are too young for social media.

But, they go to school… Where other kids do not have the same setup in their home.

A few days ago, Turkey-Man, who is now 9, complained…

Moments Daddy Never Sees

Before I get into the meat of why I am restarting this blog, let me just explain that as I was getting ready to sit down and write, I almost put chicken broth in my coffee instead of creamer. So, yeah, that’s how things are going around here!

I have been contemplating relaunching this blog for a few months now and after the past few weeks, I am more convinced than ever, that this is the right…

Let’s just start with a good day. You know, a day that I didn’t have to lose my mind over breakfast actually being eaten. No yelling occurred in the process of putting shoes and coats on. I remained calm all the way through until they were dropped off at school. Not saying that it doesn’t usually go that way. Those are just a list of possible problem areas in our home. It’s 9:15. The kids are at…

Struggling with the weight of infertility grief is an unusual type of pain. We grieve deeply for something that never existed. It seems to be hard for those who have never encountered this to understand. How can a person feel like their world has fallen apart when nothing was ever actually lost? Why can’t those with infertility simply move on? Why are they stuck in an endless cycle? For me,…

Lessons For Our Daughters – Wisdom

This week, in the series Lessons For Our Daughters, I want to discuss a third attribute we see in the Proverbs 31 woman. She is wise. There is only one line in the passage that discusses this, but when we consider that line in context with the rest of the bible we see a woman rich with something very valuable. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. Proverbs 31:26 I…

7 Things I Wish I’d Known

The degree of my naiveness when we started this journey is epic. We were thrust into the world of adoption by an expectant mother looking for a family to place her unborn child with. We were contacted out of the blue with little time to learn about what lay before us. Knowing these seven things before we headed into adoption would have been helpful.   We are still infertile – From the start I…

Lessons for Our Daughters – Confidence

The next attribute I want to discuss in the series “Lessons For Our Daughters” is confidence. We all know what that looks like. We have all seen the girl stride onto the scene, head held high and at peace that she is competent to take on the task. She is so sure of who she is that others place their trust in her with ease. Who wouldn’t want that for their daughter? Looking at the woman of…

Worthy of the Gift

As adoptive parents, can we ever reach a point where we permanently prove our worth to birth parents? If we are perfect enough, can we show them that they made a good choice in placing their child with us and somehow make up for the grief they incurred? Will the birth parents regret their decision if we are not flawless? These are the questions that haunt me. A couple of weeks ago we were…

Lessons for Our Daughters -Value

I am going to kick off this series by talking about a woman’s value. I think it is by far the thing we as women fight for the most. The modern women seems caught up in the barrage of questions centering around the theme of, “Am I enough?” We compete and compete for worth as if we could finally answer that question with a “Yes.” In Proverbs 31, we see over and over that yes, we are enough. We are…

Don’t Judge

Dear lady at the store yesterday, I saw you diverting your gaze with your head down, but eyes up trying to assess the scene that was unfolding before you. I have a few words for you that apply to pretty much anyone watching a child meltdown in a store. Everyone is the expert on parenting until they are in the trenches of having a strong-willed little one. The further I walk this journey, the more…

Over the weekend our country commemorated infant loss. I read stories of still births and saw posts from those who have suffered miscarriage. Acknowledging the pain of infant loss led me to a reminder of my own, but as always, I was left wondering where my pain fits on the spectrum. I was left questioning whether I had a right to my feelings at all. For those who have followed this blog for a…

Lessons for Our Daughters Introduction

In this culture gathering evidence for how a woman should be from the Bible is not exactly popular. It can feel suppressing with the scriptures that command the woman to be subservient to her husband or others that state a woman must be silent in the church and should not have the authority to teach. But have you ever really looked at the Proverbs 31 woman? Although all of her affairs revolve…

But, We Are Not Boys

I usually avoid the political world on my blog, but I read something today that left me rather disturbed. Did you know that The Boy Scouts of America will start accepting girls next year? I know as a woman in this era, I should be celebrating another step in gender equality, but I am left simply shaking my head. It would probably be a good idea to give you a little of my background so you…

The Breath I Hold

Both of our children’s names are dear to us. Our son’s name we liked and fell in love with the meaning and how it encapsulated our journey to parenting him. Our daughter’s name was just the opposite. We fell in love with the meaning prior to loving the sound. Both of their names are uncommon. Last week, we were finishing up Little Flower’s gymnastic session. She was running on the benches, being…

Last weekend, I had the fortune to attend a game in God’s country, a.k.a. THE Ohio State University. We headed down early for the game, wanting to walk around campus and see the sights. As always, the campus was beautiful, especially with the trees changing colors. We saw hubby’s old dorm, the library and of course the iconic stadium. Unfortunately, we ended up getting a few extra, unwanted,…

Just Yesterday…

Just yesterday, we found out you were ready for the world. Just yesterday, I laid eyes on you for the very first time. Just yesterday, they placed your body in my arms, so tiny I was almost unsure of how to hold you. Just yesterday, we announced to the world, “We have a son!” Just yesterday, I sat in awe that one tiny person can anchor my whole life in place.   Just yesterday, I saw you roll…