chem

whhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! speeeeeeeeeeeeeed!!!!!

@chemthe-intern

*Bella woke up, hearing the sudden noise. She threw on her jacket and looked out the door of her room, watching what's going on.*

wooooo!!!-

whhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! speeeeeeeeeeeeeed!!!!!

@chemthe-intern

*Bella woke up, hearing the sudden noise. She threw on her jacket and looked out the door of her room, watching what's going on.*

wooooo!!!-

- ♠♟

What.

What is this.

I dont

anya you’re a fucking queen don’t forget that keep slaying and serving Cunt and I mean that in an entirely platonic way!

anyway speed is key!!!

@chemthe-intern

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

[chem took a big inhale, turning it into a sigh while setting down a mushroom that they were looking at]

it’s fine I just don’t like being belittled or treated like I’m a fucking child

I can understand things’s perfectly fucking well if someone just tells me like an adult instead of talking down to me like I am some type of five-year-old or insulting me like I knew all along

[Ivan sighs like he's trying to to keep his composure.]

"Chem, It wasn't my intention to treat you like a child. I'm sorry."

"And I didn't think calling you stupid would cause that kind of reaction. I didn't expect you to take me so seriously, and that was wrong on my part."

[Ivan thinks for a moment.]

you saw what was on that photo don’t act like you didn’t

…………i use weed to cope ivan it’s not a dependency or an addiction

It’s just something I use to make my brain numb enough so I don’t have to remember what I went through.

I tried alcohol and it’s okay when i get a buzz but when I start teetering the line of tipsy and drunk I go to places I don’t want people to see…

I got this internship so I could possibly have the money to get therapy or get health insurance for it but it feels like I have been on this ship for years

[chem looks close to breaking down voice cracking and sounding pathetically panicked and upset]

"That's an unhealthy way to cope, Chem..."

[Ivan frowns.]

"You need to find a different way to cope with your problems. A temporary high won't fix anything and leaves you delirious afterwards. You can't sit here and hide behind your unhealthy coping mechanism as a reason to act in a way that is irresponsible."

"If you cannot function without marijuana, it is an addiction. One you need to get yourself out of before you turn to worse coping methods, or it gets unbearable. You should talk to Odessa about your mental health, as she would have better advice than I, and you could possibly set up some therapy sessions with her, but... I know how it feels to be depressed. Every day melts together and you feel helpless, but if you continue to lean into the helpessness instead of trying to find different forms of comfort, you'll never be able to get out of that bout. You'll dig your own grave, and get comfortable in it, and eventually, you feel solace. You dont scream for help, or try to get people's attention because you've been so used to laying in that hole watching the days and nights pass you by as you wait to die, for the earth to consume you and your misery."

[Ivan walks a bit closer to Chem, and puts a hand on their shoulder.]

"You need to learn how to climb. You can't stay in that grave you've dug for yourself and say you're climbing and making progress, when in reality, you're climbing up and hopping back down when you get too tired to do anymore. It feels like you've been on this ship for years because so much stuff happens every day. You make new memories, find new people. You do more than bedrot and have responsibilities for the first time in possibly a while. It's a lot for you to take in."

i……i smoke weed to stop myself from doing things that i’d regret….

i tried anti depressants and they helped for a little bit but then the side effects came out and the depression those pills caused….

[chem chokes a little on their own spit and tears]

i’d never want to experience again….

………but i will take you up on that offer of talking to you….

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

[chem took a big inhale, turning it into a sigh while setting down a mushroom that they were looking at]

it’s fine I just don’t like being belittled or treated like I’m a fucking child

I can understand things’s perfectly fucking well if someone just tells me like an adult instead of talking down to me like I am some type of five-year-old or insulting me like I knew all along

[Ivan sighs like he's trying to to keep his composure.]

"Chem, It wasn't my intention to treat you like a child. I'm sorry."

"And I didn't think calling you stupid would cause that kind of reaction. I didn't expect you to take me so seriously, and that was wrong on my part."

[Ivan thinks for a moment.]

you saw what was on that photo don’t act like you didn’t

…………i use weed to cope ivan it’s not a dependency or an addiction

It’s just something I use to make my brain numb enough so I don’t have to remember what I went through.

I tried alcohol and it’s okay when i get a buzz but when I start teetering the line of tipsy and drunk I go to places I don’t want people to see…

I got this internship so I could possibly have the money to get therapy or get health insurance for it but it feels like I have been on this ship for years

[chem looks close to breaking down voice cracking and sounding pathetically panicked and upset]

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

[chem took a big inhale, turning it into a sigh while setting down a mushroom that they were looking at]

it’s fine I just don’t like being belittled or treated like I’m a fucking child

I can understand things’s perfectly fucking well if someone just tells me like an adult instead of talking down to me like I am some type of five-year-old or insulting me like I knew all along

goooooooooood morning tulpar!!(/ref)

this is your friendly neighborhood dumbass speaking!

I have came here to say that it is shoot your jimmy with a watergun day!!!!!

water guns will be found in the main hub!

have fun! and aim for his greasy ass hair! He needs a shower!!!

- @chemthe-intern

*They can be heard laughing in the background but doing nothing to stop this. Once the intruder is done, they do take over, still laughing all the same*

Well, crew, guess we're having fun today.

Please keep in mind that our co-pilot does take very good care of himself and is very well-groomed, though! Feel free to screw up his routine with this event at the very least.

But please don't be too mean to him! He's doing his best!

that’s what has helped me because i have been through that type of depression and task freeze

it might help it might not but it’s a good start!

STAY OUT THE DAMN VENTS

anyways i’m going to make sure my other gummy bears are safe!

STAY OUT THE DAMN VENTS

- @chemthe-intern

*Bella was on her bed, staring off into space before looking over.*

"Sorry I couldn't help myself."

- @chemthe-intern

*Bella was on her bed, staring off into space before looking over.*