yo, satoru!

"he can do no wrong" well actually i think he did a lot of wrong things, and that's specifically what attracted me to him in the first place

“It’s photoshopped” honestly in the age of AI that has a homey sort of nostalgia to it. Remember when people used to put effort into faking things?

mentally taking a drag of my mental cigarette because I don’t smoke but life has been very smokable lately

Start of the second semester. I am once again struggling and completely doubting myself. I hope these feelings of incompetence would pass.

Got all As for my second semester. I was only happy for five seconds. I’m sad. I regret everything. I miss my grandma. I feel suffocated right now. I miss my grandpa as well. I want to die

Hi, it’s been a few weeks since the start of my third semester in graduate school. I feel so stupid, actually, more than ever. Anyway I am now a lecturer (part time) at a university. It’s nice to be busy so I can stop having certain thoughts but it gets stressful sometimes. I can do this though, I hope.

Well, It has been a few months. My full time work is so demanding and I can’t handle it anymore. Handed out my resignation letter and my last day will be in Dec 3. I’ll be focusing on graduate school as well as on being a university lecturer.

I have completed my coursework and am will be starting my thesis next semester. I look forward to this summer.