See Me Dance

PM:  People are jerks.  They assumed I did drugs for every stupid reason under the sun.  Forget those people, do they really matter anyway?  Yeah…I know what that feels like and damn if I don’t think about G-man at least once a day.  If it’s any consolation, me and Cricket don’t plan on going anywhere.  Yanno, to get a break from being mad.

PM: I hate it when people make assumptions. They can't really know anything. And it's not like the reasons really matter ... right? The future matters. That ... does help, yeah. Sarah's even been trying to be nice, too, and I know Austin's still ... well, he's Austin. He's always kinda done his own thing. I know I'm not alone, I guess, when I think about it, but it doesn't stop me feeling lonely anyway. But ... I'm glad we're friends. Really. 

I dunno, I mean I’ve always been a bitch and an asshole, whereas you…you’re like sunshine.  I’d almost assume it’s hard for you to be mean.  But yeah, I’ve been a little worried about you; Cricket too.

PM: It's just ... it's hard. And I hate how people just assume I'm being mean because I can't get a date. I lost someone I really, really cared about -- loved, even -- and other people keep on leaving, too. I don't even want to bother trying to be friendly when it's just gonna keep on hurting when they keep leaving. 

Or it’s literally about everyone here.

ITM seems very hostile lately, it’s like everyone is on edge about something. How about everyone stops trying to find significant others and just enjoy everyone’s company. Friends are more important to make than boy/girlfriends. Damn.

Directed at me, much?

So you're NOT going on some random sexcapade with Sugar down in TJ? 

Just going to drink here.

Well sounds like you enjoy pissing people off and getting them to fucking say that. No one ever said you were fucking invisible so stop being so damn dramatic.

And you think that talking about yourself this way is going to change that? It won’t. You’re great Chelsea. You’re beautiful, and you’re sweet. You don’t have to try and change yourself just because you’ve been rejected a few times. Build back that ego. You have tons of people watching you dance every night and paying for it. That’s a boost. Stop focusing on wanting love so hard, because yeah, you’ll come across as desperate and that won’t help. Be yourself, enjoy your life. Go out, do things that you like, and stop thinking that you’re not good enough. There are people who like you here, and the clients love you. It means something. Maybe it’s not a boyfriend, but it’ll happen. Not if you keep talking about yourself like that though. You’re hot, you’re single and you’re a good person, Chelsea. That’s all that matters.

Just going to drink here.

You know what? Fuck you. Just because you didn’t know her does it mean you get to talk shit about her. And I don’t know about that, but I know no one would give a shit if I left either.

Yeah, fuck me. That's right. That's the most emotion anyone ever directs at me. Keep getting pissed off. Fucking yell at me! at least it means I'm not fucking invisible! 

Just going to drink here.

Yeah, no, it isn't. I'm sick and tired of everyone singing her praises like she was the best thing to happen to this place. It's not like she was actually all that special. It's not like anyone would shed a single fucking tear if I took off.

Just going to drink here.

I'm sorry I'm not Harper. But we can't all be perfect, I guess.