The Cheerful Heart.

The inevitable has now started to make its presence felt..and sooner or later, I know I had to face it. But the real question is that, should I start praying for it? Or just let it happen? The desire for a soul to share my life with seems fiery these days.. And I just don’t know.. If I should be entertaining these kinds of thoughts. First is because I’ve got a handful of things in my plate at the moment, secondly, I might be still too young to be bothered by these kind of thoughts and third, to be frank, I don’t feel ready yet. Matter of fact, I don’t think I’m near being ready… Wow, just wow. I dunno if I can handle all the roller-coaster emotional side effect of it. Haha. But what to do, I’m feeling it.. I guess I’M STARTING TO PRAY FOR A GUY THAT I’VE NEVER MET BEFORE, or maybe we’ve met, I’m not sure. Haha. Is it possible to love a person without even knowing him? To care for him deeply without knowing his name? To even respect that person with sincerity? Shocks. This is unusual… At least for me. 🙂 But it kinda feels right.

I’m in the least state of being in love or being romantically involve wd anyone right now… And the thing is that, from then up to this very moment, I can’t imagine seeing anyone I know romantically. Hahahahaha. This is weird. And yet, I get this feeling of loving someone I’ve no idea what his identity is like…don’t get me wrong .. I’m not in search for “Mr. Right”…I’m not looking for him, I’m not even trying to imagine what will he be like. If he’s tall or not, my type or not (i don’t even know my type haha), serious or jolly, and so on. I’m just loving him with the love of the Lord. Crazy huh? So how do I love him without even knowing him? I get it, he wont be perfect, yes he definitely won’t be. Hahaha. I thank God for that. Haha. At least I know we have something in common. 🙂 we both are flawed individuals. And being flawed, we’ll be reassured by the truth that we have a perfect God who is able to sustain whatever set backs we have. 🙂

So… How do I love an anonymous person? Well, I’m not sure.. The Lord put so much love in my heart that I know I have to love him this much…I love him so much so that I’m preserving every emotions to pursue God first in everything, to surrender him first to God and vow not to run after anyone. 😉 I love him so much that I’m taking good care of myself so that I’ll be “in good condition” when the time arrives that I’ll be put into his care. ❤️ I love him so much that I’m giving him time and space to grow in the Lord. I care for him so much that I’m praying for him to overcome every challenge and difficulties along his way… that he will be encouraged and inspired by the Lord. I’m praying for him to continually be patient… I’m praying that wherever he is, he will be happy and satisfied… I’m praying that whatever personal goal he has for himself, he will achieved it..all for the Glory of God. I’m praying that he will be able to move on from every heart break and will always find light in times of darkness…I’m praying that before we finally meet, we’ve both found our identity in Christ and that it wont be us fulfilling each other flaws (for that is the work of the Spirit) but rather our individual passion will be complementing in such a way that the work of the Lord will be complete through it.

Again, just to make things clear, I’m not praying for God to give me a knight in shining armor Mr. Right. I know, I don’t need someone like that, because I already do have my knight in shining armor, and I only need one– Jesus is my only knight in shining armor. 🙂 He alone deserves that title. What I’m praying for is that the time we are apart will be used to mature both of us and enlarge our hearts, that it will be full of the love of God So much so that we will reach out to the hearts of God’s people and as we reach out to their hearts, at God’s appointed time, we also would be able to reach and grasp each others hearts- his love for God to capture my heart, my love for God to hold his heart. That our love for the Lord would unite us both.

I’m not dreaming. I’m not expecting. I’m not there yet, my love for God and His people is being tested everyday.. And I’m sure that he is as well..

So yeah. As early as now.. I’m praying. Not for any particular person…Just praying for my Mr. Unknown to pursue God and for us to be led to each other at the proper time. 😁