Ratty Ramblings

2022: shooting session

2023: spark amp

2024: trip to Dorset

My former employer deleted the evidence of my achievements, then denied that I had ever done them. Other people at the company, who knew for a fact that I had completed the work, found it easier to gaslight me than to stand up for the objective truth. Some of these people I was indifferent to but one in particular was someone I respected a lot and I thought that she liked me. Instead I was called a liar and denied access for something that I'd paid for. Mind you, this same individual had invited me in the first place!!

1) something I valued was withheld from me for reasons that I had no control over at all

2) someone that I previously liked and respected, and that I personally have stood up for and defended even when they weren't around, didn't stand up for me. Ngl that hurt the most. I adored her but all humans are fallible I suppose

3) I was humiliated and had my time and money wasted

4) whenever I get emotional like this it just bubbles to the surface all the other brutal betrayal I've encountered in my life (the whole inheritance catastrophe, my former best friend becoming a cunt etc)

5) I feel like the term gaslighting gets thrown around a lot when people mean simply lying, but the level of gaslighting I encountered over this was to the point where I genuinely started questioning my reality until I had the truth confirmed by someone impartial. Like the people gaslighting me didn't simply have a different opinion, we were arguing objective truth and I was correct

Also, I miss the Lloyds,

Also, why did my whole entire family abandon me.

Also, why did Danny betray me. Asshole.