the first born

Hello, stranger.

You are not alone. Most people here feel the same thing. Probably not having the same exact situation but most people here, like you, crave for the kind of escape you think you won’t find anywhere else. You crave for a place where you won’t be judged, you will be understood and maybe you won’t be notice so you could experience that misery all by yourself.

Or maybe you are just tired. You can still survive that “outside world” but you need to pause life for few hours and just breathe. Yes, you aren’t alone feeling that way.

Or maybe you are one of those people who are feeling “fine”. The kind of fine that you use as a response when people ask you how you’re doing. Yup, the “I don’t know what I am feeling” kind of fine. Again, you’re not alone.

Or maybe, for a change, you’re here because you’re happy. Good for you then. In that case I hope you are not alone feeling that way.

I don’t know how you’re doing in your life right now. I don’t know what you are thinking, feeling, whatever. But I know what it’s like to be exhausted and wonder if there’s more to life than this daily routine full of things that make you question will this all matter in a decade.

So this is for people who are in tumblr right now because they need escape. I am not sure you came in the right place. But here’s one thing I am sure of: you will eventually get what you deserve. It’s up to you if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. Whether you are one of those people who are running from their problems which will eventually bite them in the ass or you are on of those people who I envy, who seem to have their life figured out.

Whoever you are, whatever you do, there’s no such thing as a perfect escape. Some sleep for more than their usual hours because they need to forget. Some drink all night and end up with painful hangover. Some write their hearts out and let words bleed for them. We all have different ways of escape but here you are now, reading this, probably expecting for something more motivating than this.

But here’s the truth: you cannot escape everything but you can have faith that the storm you’re experiencing now will fade. you cannot run away all the time but you can hope for greater destination than where you are right now. you cannot fake all your emotions but you can love yourself enough to accept the reality and help yourself to get these things over with.

don’t shame your friends for wanting to be alone/being single