So this is kinda a weird one so excuse the strange rant, my ex kinda ruined The Search For Wondla for me and I want to get past that feeling. I discovered these books as a growing adult and they were such an amazing read and made me feel like a little kid again reading the Spiderwick Chronicles (the authors other series) or Warrior Cats. I hadn't had such a love and hyper fixation for anything in years (found the first Wondla at an antique store in Maine while camping!)
Needless to say the book absolutely absorbed me the past 4 years and I'd been absolutely obsessing about it to him and wanting my bf to read it and he liked the art and was interested I told him so I got it for him last Christmas and he started reading it about 6 months later a couple chapters at a time and talking to me about it but still not finishing it. Flash forward to this year where he breaks up with me a week after my birthday over text over him lying about stuff then turning it on me because he wouldn’t change his ways, not a pretty situation and it was pretty messed up and I'm still in shock and angry. For a while thats a lot of we talked about was Wondla stuff cause he was really into the worldbuilding and I was obviously obsessed and now it upsets me.
But he tried to end by saying he'd still finish the book and take notes on it for if I ever "felt like talking about it" and it made me so mad cause he made the decision to dump me on his own (mind you we've been together 7 years) and to try to just open end something so special to me hurts while dumping me is so rotten and tbh it's hard to look at anything to do with Wondla now cause I think of him inadvertently and I HATE it cause that was my safe place and I need to take it back.
On the same note, l've watched parts of the show (not the whole thing but a good amount) | have my issues with the style and character designs but I genuinely wanted to watch them in full and maybe even try to do a Youtube video contrasting the show with the books cause there's a lot to talk about and it’s a fun topic for me. But now it's like he killed the part of me that wanted to do that even (he encouraged me when I spoke about it but now it's like I don't even want him to see it/thinking of making it alone sucks) I really wanted to try animations and stuff to for the book and I haven't even wanted to pick up my tablet pen cause he helped me pick that too. Wondla was such an art unblock for me and now it’s blocked from me
sorry for the long and weird and personal rant, and there’s more I wanna add cause there’s a lot but I gotta go to work and I needed some community for my favorite fandom which I have to separate now from ex in my brain
